Just more of the same I guess.  I think I'm going to just have to give up any hope of having the natural birth I wanted.  We're scheduling the c-section and even though she said that we'll schedule it and maybe the day before try to do a mini-induction (they can't do a full on aggressive one because of my previous c-section) but again, I think she ( Read more... )

My brain broke after watching this.  Kevin stood there a little stunned for a minute.

Now I share it with you:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzOpjBOzMqA

And then you can finish it up with this:http://

This weather sucks.  I want snow... nice snow.. like a few inches... enough to shovel and play in and build snow men.  We got about 20 minutes of snow and I got hopeful but now its just freezing rain/sleet.  That's just sucky :(  I want white!  Sean's got new snowpants and new snow mittens and I want to USE them!  They said we'd get somewhere ( Read more... )

This probably makes me a horrible person, but I don't want to be pregnant anymore.  I'm so uncomfortable and I've still got 10 weeks left .. arrrrrrrrrrrgh.  I can't breathe and I'm exhausted.  The can't breathe thing is really distressing and causes the exhaustion because I CANT FUCKING SLEEP.  If its not because of the lack of air, its because I ( Read more... )

She's gone.

I said my good-byes but my heart still hurts.  I know its better and the pain is gone and I have to believe that she has been reunited with Papa.

I miss her, and I wish I had had more time.

This wasn't supposed to happen.

last night Kevin and Sean stayed at his mother's house so I had the house to myself this morning.  I woke up and I wasn't sure what to do with myself, so I got dressed and headed to the hospital.  I got there around 8:45 or so.  I wandered around near the CTU waiting room for a while, headed downstairs to have a cup of coffee, and sat outside for a ( Read more... )

I'm starting to wonder why we don't just move somewhere really far away because I'm ready to get away from just about everyone.

All of them are insane. All of them are ridiculous. I can't take much more of this shit.

Why can't anyone be fucking normal???

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poor little guy.. Sean was playing on some swings in my friend's back yard and he must have disturbed a nest that was under the slide. The second I saw them swarm out I grabbed him and took off towards the house. At first i thought he was crying because I scared him.. we moved so fast and violently that I would imagine that freaking him out. He ( Read more... )

Men in kilts and boots is always a win.

Yum. Yum.