Love's Sorrow Epilogue
Title: Love's Sorrow
Author: aoi_jihyo
Length: 21/20 (Epilogue)
Pairing: Yoosu/ Jaejoong/oc
Genre: Angst/Smut/Romance
Rating: R
Warning: m-preg
Summary: Junsu was aware that the man was his brother-in-law. Yoochun wasn't his and he knew it. But Junsu's darkest side still wanted him, it desired him. It was a question of pride, wasn't it?
Wasn't it?
Immersing himself in work was the only way Jaejoong could forget the fact that he didn’t have a husband anymore. It was emotionally frustrating, but it was also physically painful; he missed the warmth those arms gave him when embracing him. He missed the kisses, the touches, and the pleasure.
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He wanted to be held by someone. It was really embarrassing to think that he would crave for a man’s touch so much. But he couldn’t help it, the last time he had sex was that time with the university student. Maybe he could pay for the services of someone?
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Shaking the thoughts away Jaejoong licked his lips. He was really desperate.
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“Are- are you taking pictures of me?” Asked Jaejoong looking at the man that was holding a camera really shamelessly to Jaejoong’s taste.
It was then that the other man realized his target was now looking directly at him through the lenses. “Ah- yes, I’m sorry.”
A frown appeared on Jaejoong’s face as he stood up to face the man. “Do you mind deleting those pictures?”
“I’m sorry I won’t do that,” he didn’t quite understand why he didn’t lie and simply keep the photographs in secret, but he wasn’t thinking properly at the moment.
“Excuse me but you do not have my permission to take pictures of ME, so I would kindly ask you to delete them,” persisted Jaejoong.
“And I will kindly refuse.”
Jaejoong mouth was wide open, was this guy for real? Biting his lips in frustration he tried to take the camera away from the man’s hands, but the mission resulted impossible. It was really irritating especially because the man seemed to take it as a game.
Jaejoong’s frown became bigger. “Whatever, I’m leaving.”
He didn’t want to leave without making sure the man deleted the photographs, but he was not going to let the other humiliate him.
“I’m sorry,” said the other as he followed him.
“It doesn’t matter,” said Jaejoong annoyed. “Could you please stop following me?”
“I’m really sorry, I will delete the pictures.” Jaejoong stopped to look at the man. “I just thought you look really beautiful and couldn’t help it; I love to photograph beautiful things.”
This time Jaejoong blushed instead. “Well, it doesn’t matter anymore. Excuse me,” he said walking away.
“What’s your name?”
“It’s rude to ask for someone else’s name without giving yours first.”
“You are right, my name is Jisung, well, my real name is Kwak Taegun, but no one calls me that.”
“I see. You are Korean Mr. Kwak? My name is Kim Jaejoong.”
“It’s an honor to meet you, and yes, I’m Korean, ah! But please call me Jisung.”
Jaejoong blushed as he nodded. “Ok, Jisung sshi.”
“Would you like to drink something with me?” asked the handsome man, and that was the moment Jaejoong realized how good looking the man actually was. Hitting himself mentally for his inappropriate thoughts Jaejoong shook his head as a negative. “I understand, you probably think I'm an uneducated idiot.” Jaejoong wanted to answer by saying that was not true, but there was a long pause for what Jisung laughed. “That must be a yes.”
“That was not what I meant, sorry.”
“And that's why I invited you; I would not want you to leave with that impression of me,” he insisted again with that almost innocent looking smile, a really beautiful smile that Jaejoong had to look away from.
“Okay,” he finally accepted the proposal and they went to the café that was in front of the park.
It was really nice to have someone to talk to. Once the two men had more confidence, Jaejoong realized that the man was actually a very nice person and was also very intelligent.
“No way! You really are nine years older than me? You're an old man. Should I call you uncle?”
Jisung blushed to the attention Jaejoong was giving him, he was in fact and old man compared to the beauty in front of him, he thought. “Just kidding, you are somewhat old but look so good for your age,” smiled sweetly Jaejoong. “We almost look the same age.”
“Thanks, that’s a relief. By the way,” he interrupted. “What were you thinking before?”
“What was I thinking? What do you mean?” Jaejoong asked confused.
Jisung smiled “When I was taking the pictures you had an expression on your face that was too ... Too, how to say it? Sexy?”
Jaejoong almost choke on his own saliva, it was true that he was thinking about inappropriate things. He cleaned his throat and still blushing gave the man a mean look. “I’m speechless; I do not know how to answer you so we should just leave this topic.”
Jisung chuckled. “I see, I’m sorry I didn’t want to offend you.”
It was hard to believe that after that day, they met many more times. It happened without them noticing, but Jisung began to expend more time in Jaejoong’s apartment than his own. Usually they would simply spend time talking and eating, since Jisung was in love with Jaejoong’s cooking.
“I have to start charging you,” said Jaejoong serving some pasta on a clean and organized table.
“Would you really do that? I wouldn’t mind paying for your food, though,” said Jisung with a smile on his face.
“Whatever, just eat.”
Once they were both finished they proceeded to sit on the couch and watch some movies. As always, they ended up sitting on the floor with Jaejoong in between Jisung’s legs, and as always, the latter embraced the younger man in his arms. Jaejoong didn’t dislike the action, but feeling the warm of another body would always shake him a bit. Was he that desperate that with a simple hug his body’s temperature would go up?
And Jisung was aware of that. Every day he would embrace the man and kiss his neck just really slightly but it would always make Jaejoong’s body tremble.
“Don’t do that,” demanded Jaejoong in a murmur.
“Why not?” asked Jisung innocently.
Jaejoong turned his head to look at the man. “What do you mean? Because it’s weird and inappropriate besides, weren’t you denting someone?”
Jisung looked at the man in surprise. “Don’t you pay attention? I told you we broke up like two months ago.”
Jaejoong nodded. “I know, but- it’s still not right to do this.”
“Why? Does it make you feel uncomfortable?” he asked; his mouth really close to Jaejoong’s ear.
“A little,” whispered the other.
“I will probably get old until I make you realize that I like you,” he said with a tired face.
“What are you talking about,” Jaejoong tried to stand up. “Let me go.”
Jisung didn’t let go. He wasn’t stupid, he knew that Jaejoong felt just the same way and he was not going to give up on the man. That night, with Jaejoong protesting every few seconds, they both slept in each other’s arms. Jaejoong woke up early in the morning and was about to stand up, but he just couldn’t do that. He was sure that if he let go of the other at this point, things were going to be too complicated.
He never let go, not until both of them had to get ready to go to work.
They didn’t need to explain what that action meant. Both of them knew that their feeling was mutual. And that’s how their love started.
After finishing his project, Jisung knew that he needed to go back to Korea, but he didn’t want to leave Jaejoong alone, especially after beginning a serious relationship with the man. After hearing the news, Jaejoong didn’t hesitate to arrange everything to go back to Korea as well. He wanted to see his family and plus he couldn’t just let Jisung go by himself.
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“I want you to meet my family,” said Jisung, Jaejoong resting his head on his chest.
“I thought you said you didn’t have any family members here in Korea, don’t they all live in England?” asked the youngest man.
“My brother and his family live here, I want you to meet them”
Jaejoong smiled; he really liked the idea. Meeting Jisung’s family felt somehow as him being accepted by the man.
That weekend they got ready to go and pay a visit to Jisung’s older brother. Jisung had informed them and they decided to have a small meal to celebrate their engagement.
They arrived to a beautiful house. Jaejoong thought they place looked extremely homely and couldn’t help to wish for a place like that for Jisung and him. They left the car and rang the doorbell. Not soon after the door opened and a young man showed his handsome face.
“Ah!” Jaejoong almost had a hard attack after recognizing the face of the man that was in front of him. The other man also had his eyes wide open.
“You?” asked the young man. Jaejoong blushed and looked away.
“Do you know each other?” Asked jisung.
“Not really,” answered jaejoong when he noticed that the other man was about to answer, he didn't want Jisung to misunderstand.
The other guy pouted but didn't insist and simply led them inside the house where his parents were waiting. The dinner went pretty well, Jisung’s brother and spouse seemed to be really happy for them. They talked for a long time and had a great time, but since Jaejoong wasn't feeling really well they decided to leave to their new apartment.
After getting home Jisung looked at jaejoong with questioning eyes.
“Tell me,” he demanded with a strong but non-angry voice. Jaejoong looked at the man biting his lips.
“Nothing real…” after looking at Jisung and realizing that the man wasn't playing he sighed. “It was long. Looooong time ago, before I left Korea. I was just going through the divorce when I met your nephew. We... We had a one night stand.”
There was complete silence. Jisung did not really know how to react. He couldn’t really get angry because it was something that had happened when he didn’t even know the man, but he was not going to lie and pretend that the fact didn’t bother him at all.
“Ok, so you are telling me that you and my nephew had sex?” He looked at Jaejoong hoping that he had heard wrong.
“Yes, but I won’t apologize,” said Jaejoong with determination.
Jisung sighed and looked a little bit more relaxed. “I understand the fact that it happened before I met you, but I just don’t know what to do with this from now on, should I talk to him?”
“Talk to him? I don’t understand,” said Jaejoong confused.
“Well, we don’t want him telling others that my future spouse had sex with him, do we?” Jaejoong smiled and embraced the man. “What?”
“I thought you were going to say something like that you didn’t want to marry me anymore.”
“What are you talking about? I also had my adventures, so I don’t have the right to judge you and complain.”
“Yeah, whatever, I don’t really want to know about those adventures so don’t tell me.”
And they did talk to Jisung’s nephew. It was really awkward but the guy even though he was disappointed, agreed to not tell anyone about their one night stand. Therefore, with no more delays, the couple finally got married. They did not have a flashy wedding or anything like that. Since Jaejoong had already been married it would be a little bit weird, plus they simply liked the idea of a small ceremony with their family members. It was also a good thing that they got married then, a month later Jaejoong learned that he was about two months pregnant.
Jisung was more than delighted with the news and so was Jaejoong. The feeling of finally having the opportunity of feeling such a beautiful being inside him was the most amazing thing in the world. Jisung was a caring and clumsy father and Jaejoong was a little bit grumpy most of the time but that didn’t stop them from being a really happy couple.
Now Mr. and Mrs. Kim did not have two but four grandchildren. One from Jaejoong and three from Junsu. Yoochun and Junsu were also pregnant almost at the same time with Jaejoong, for what Jaejoong felt even more moody since he didn’t want to share the spotlight at that moment. And for that Jisung had to work really hard to make his spouse a really happy man.
Seungho, their child was a really cute kid. He was as beautiful as Jaejoong and handsome as his father. Joonha, Junsu’s third son, was also a really adorable kid. Seungho and Joonha liked to play all day long and of course their parents were always tired following them around. But they were happy. It was still awkward to think that once Jaejoong was married to Yoochun, but for the sake of their kids they tried their best in making things comfortable. It was also a delicate topic that they didn’t like touching and so they never did. From then on they decided to live their present and future as best as they could and forget of the unpleasant past.
Jaejoong finally had what he always wanted, a beautiful, healthy and happy family. Of course they had their ups and downs, but that was part of life.
The End.
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