Love's Sorrow Chapter 5
Title: Love's Sorrow
Author: aoi_jihyo
Length: 05/20
Pairing: Yoosu, jaechun (slight)
Genre: Angst/Smut/Romance
Rating: R
Warning: Probable m-preg
Summary: Junsu was aware that the man was his brother-in-law. Yoochun wasn't his and he knew it. But Junsu's darkest side still wanted him, it desired him. It was a question of pride, wasn't it?
Wasn’t it?
Junsu walked inside his apartment with a smile on his face. Finally after two years of hard work and a little bit of whining to his father, Junsu was able to rent his own apartment in a really beautiful area.
Two years have also passed since he started his relationship with Park Yoochun, his brother-in-law. It had been really difficult to maintain their secret relationship. Junsu was sometimes really indiscrete but with time he also became more mature. Yoochun also changed. He spend so much time with Junsu that it was just impossible not to at least by now feel more comfortable with the boy. No, Yoochun wasn’t happy with their secret, but he knew that there was no point to whine and be harsh to Junsu anymore.
The youngest Kim walked inside the bath. He was happy that now his relationship with Yoochun looked more real. It was complicated; he still needed to be careful. He couldn’t leave any mark on Yoochun’s body, yet he had to put up looking at the marks that his brother made on him. He couldn’t call Yoochun every time he wanted either.
But today was different, today was a special day and Junsu couldn’t stop thinking of all the things that Yoochun and him would do.
After the bath, Junsu went back to the kitchen, everything was ready.
It was actually quite funny because it was his birthday yet he was the one cooking and making the party. He was fine with that though. Yoochun would come, he would have fun and obey Junsu’s every wish, but Yoochun wasn’t going to initiate the party or maybe he didn’t even remember it was his birthday. Junsu was fine with that too. He was fine.
I’m fine, Junsu repeated to himself all the time.
Finally the doorbell rang. Junsu smiled and happily went to open the door.
“Chunnie!” he jumped to hug the man.
Yoochun didn’t return the affectionate act, but he didn’t push him either. Junsu was used to it.
Unexpectedly after a few seconds of the hug Junsu felt Yoochun’s arms embrace his body, just slightly, but he did.
“Happy birthday,” Yoochun murmured quietly.
Junsu was too happy to even say thank you. He just grinned like idiot and jumped to kiss the man’s lips.
They both walked back into the apartment where a big banquet was waiting ready on the table.
“I worked really hard on the food, is my first time cooking but I’m sure it tastes delicious.”
Yoochun look at the food. “Why do I have the feeling that I will get poison?”
Junsu pouted. “You are so mean, I worked really hard, you know? I have to take cooking classes aside from working at the company, it was so tiring.”
“I didn’t ask you to take classes though.”
“Ungrateful.”
After discussing a little bit more about how Junsu didn’t have to do useless things for Yoochun when the latter didn’t ask him to, the boys sat down and ate the food.
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Jaejoong was at his parents’ house. Today was Junsu’s birthday. They called him to see if they could celebrate the boy’s birthday, but Junsu simply say no. Yoochun was nowhere to be found either.
Thinking about Yoochun, Jaejoong’s troubling thoughts came back. He didn’t know what to think. Yoochun wasn’t acting strange, he acted just as always. But Jaejoong wasn’t stupid. Yoochun getting lost once in a while. Him coming home late more than twice a week. He just couldn’t put aside those feelings inside of him. There was that voice telling him that Yoochun was looking someone else.
He sighed thinking about that.
“Is there something wrong, baby?” asked Mrs. Kim worried about her son.
Jaejoong looked at the woman, he wasn’t sure if sharing his concern with his mother was the best thing to do. “There’s nothing wrong, mom,” he smiled.
“Do you think I’m stupid? I know you, Jaejoong, and you are not okay.”
Jaejoong chuckled hearing that. “I don’t know mom, I just think that I’m seeing things where there aren’t any.”
“What do you mean, baby. Is there something wrong with Yoochun?”
Thinking about this and actually saying it was so much different. “I think Yoochun is having an affair,” he said in a quiet voice.
Mrs. Kim was taken aback; she wasn’t expecting something like this. Yoochun was a really nice guy, he was really kind and considerate, and thinking that he might be cheating on Jaejoong was something Mrs. Kim never thought will come into discussion. “What makes you think that,” she asked as she sat next to her son.
“I’m not dumb, mom. Yoochun comes home late, he comes and showers right away, or he comes already showered. We… we haven’t really have an active intimate relationship lately. Yes, we do have sex once in a while, but is usually because I start it, I don’t even think he desires me anymore.”
“Is your life, baby, I don’t see what you see and that’s why I won’t defend him, but you have to think wisely about this. If Yoochun is not cheating on you but you accused him of it without the right of doubt, things can get complicated.”
Jaejoong was aware of that, that was the reason he hasn’t ask his husband. He didn’t want to lose Yoochun’s trusts, but at this point he didn’t know what to do anymore.
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“You won’t even sing happy birthday to me,” pouted Junsu.
The two men were sitting on the couch watching a romantic film that Junsu had rented. The younger boy has decided to enjoy the movie and just have a good time with Yoochun, but it was so hard to control his feelings. He decided not to have sex with Yoochun since two weeks ago just so this day would be special. All those weeks were having their effect now.
Yoochun simply kept looking straight ahead. “No,” he said without remorse.
Junsu did what he would always do when Yoochun acted that way, he smiled. “You are so mean.”
To protect his heart, Junsu would always do that, he smiled and took Yoochun’s words as a joke.
“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear, Junsu, happy birthday to you. Happy?”
Junsu laughed with his distinctive eu kyang kyang. “You didn’t even sing it,” he giggled.
“Be happy with it, I’m not doing anything else.”
“You are not as mean as I thought,” he smiled again, this time a genuine smile.
Junsu leaned his head on Yoochun’s shoulder. Having a decent conversation was now more common, Junsu really liked it.
The younger boy tried to get closer to the other man, if that was even possible. He then lifted his face and whispered. “I love you.”
Five minutes later, there was no response from Yoochun. Junsu didn’t say anything either, he just hide his face on Yoochun’s cloths. He wasn’t expecting to hear Yoochun saying “I love you” but that didn’t mean that he didn’t have a little bit of hope. He wanted Yoochun to realize about his feelings, yes, Junsu actually believed that Yoochun was in love with him but that he was too stubborn to admit it. He was sure of it, or so he liked to think.
“Make love to me,” said Junsu. The silent was just too awkward at the moment.
Yoochun stood up. He was also feeling awkward and didn’t want to keep with their little confession. He knew Junsu felt something for him, he wasn’t stupid, but he really liked to think that it was just mere obsession, just a game.
Junsu tried to take off Yoochun’s clothes as the other man touch him.
The older man took Junsu’s pants as fast as he could. He placed his face over Junsu’s throbbing cock. He loved the smell of the piece of meat; it was for sure one of his favorite smells. Junsu always felt shy when Yoochun would do that. It was not that he didn’t like it, is just that he wanted to know what Yoochun was thinking every time he would do those kinds of things.
“Stop ah~” moaned Junsu. His boxers were still on, but every time Yoochun sniff deeper there was that ticklish feeling running through his whole body.
Yoochun wondered why, why did he like to be with Junsu so much? Yes, he was not going to lie and say that Junsu’s touch wasn’t pleasurable for him. He was not going to lie and say that he didn’t want Junsu at all. Thinking about his life without Junsu, it was just too weird.
But then again, thinking of his life without Jaejoong was terrifying as well.
With gentle hands he pulled down Junsu’s boxers admiring the erected member. There was pre-cum already coming out of the tip. He leaned in again to lick the crystal liquid. Junsu’s toes tensed and twisted trying to calm down just a little bit the overwhelming feeling.
Junsu pouted, Yoochun simply teased him and now he was standing up. “What are you doing?” he asked as he sat up.
“Taking my clothes off, obviously.”
Junsu grinned and lay down on the couch again.
Without waiting any second, Yoochun parted Junsu’s legs so he could get in between them. The younger boy held the other boy’s neck kissing him with passion as Yoochun kept rubbing his fingers against his nipples, his shirt lifted up making his chest visible.
With skilled hands, Yoochun opened the lube that he had taken from his pants moments ago. Junsu wasn’t letting go of his lips, so he tried to find the boy’s entrance putting the liquid over it once he did.
“Ahr~” growled Junsu feeling two of Yoochun’s fingers inside of him.
He wanted him so bad.
“Now… please,” tried to say the boy as clearly as he could.
Yoochun didn’t waste any second after hearing Junsu’s begging voice. He lifted the boy’s hips placing them at the right level.
“AH~”
Having Yoochun inside of him was always so pleasurable. Junsu didn’t like the fact that even after those years he was still unable to satisfy the older man without having the help from the latter. He didn’t want to be just that younger boy that Yoochun was fucking. But then, he wasn’t even good nor was he an expert in this field.
Yoochun slammed his hips against Junsu’s butt with vigor.
“Ah~! Ah~”
Their moans and groans filled the room in a question of seconds. Junsu felt in paradise. Yoochun, Yoochun felt dirty, but that was nothing new.
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After four rounds the two boys were in Junsu’s bedroom. Junsu looked at Yoochun putting his clothes on. He bit his lips trying to contain all the emotions that were forming inside of his chest. “Stay,” he said in a little voice.
Yoochun didn’t stop. This was something that they have decided long time ago; he was not going to stay because he knew that Jaejoong would be waiting for him. Junsu has agreed with Yoochun back then because he knew that Yoochun was right.
“Stay,” he repeated
Yoochun turned back to look at the boy. “I have to go and you know it. Is already late.”
“But is my birthday, don’t you think that I deserved to have you for at least a few more hours. Just stay tonight, please.”
Yoochun didn’t want to stay there, he didn’t want to do something like that to Jaejoong, it was bad enough what was happening with his brother, to act indifferent or to ignore him was something he always tried not to do. It was hard, especially at the time of intimacy.
He tried to go back to get dress but Junsu’s face was just too much. He hated to make him cry, he hated to make Jaejoong cry, it was just too complicated. He just couldn’t please the two boys.
“Alright,” he said.
Junsu smiled happily and made space on the bed so Yoochun could lie with him.
Yoochun lay next to Junsu and the boy soon used the man’s chest as his pillow. Soon the younger boy felt asleep.
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Jaejoong walked back and forth in the living room. He had been waiting for Yoochun for hours but the man was still nowhere to be found.
“You are still awake?” was the first thing that came from Yoochun’s mouth once he got home.
Jaejoong looked furious, he frowned. “Where were you? I had been waiting for hours, and I didn’t see you in the whole day.”
Yoochun’s heart hurt. Jaejoong was probably the last person on the world that deserved something like this. “I’m sorry, I was at my friend’s house, I just lost sense of time.”
“Friend’s house?” Yoochun nodded.
The man knew that conversing longer would mean trouble for him, so he decided to stop it. “I’m really sorry. You must be tired, let’s go to sleep.”
Jaejoong wasn’t happy with the answer. Having Yoochun come home this late was like a confirmation of his affair. He shook his head, he needed to be sure of it, he didn’t want to lose Yoochun’s trust.
But, what would he do if Yoochun was actually cheating on him? What would he do then?
Not wanting to think about that anymore the man walked with Yoochun to their bedroom.
Chapter 6
Author: aoi_jihyo
Length: 05/20
Pairing: Yoosu, jaechun (slight)
Genre: Angst/Smut/Romance
Rating: R
Warning: Probable m-preg
Summary: Junsu was aware that the man was his brother-in-law. Yoochun wasn't his and he knew it. But Junsu's darkest side still wanted him, it desired him. It was a question of pride, wasn't it?
Wasn’t it?
Junsu walked inside his apartment with a smile on his face. Finally after two years of hard work and a little bit of whining to his father, Junsu was able to rent his own apartment in a really beautiful area.
Two years have also passed since he started his relationship with Park Yoochun, his brother-in-law. It had been really difficult to maintain their secret relationship. Junsu was sometimes really indiscrete but with time he also became more mature. Yoochun also changed. He spend so much time with Junsu that it was just impossible not to at least by now feel more comfortable with the boy. No, Yoochun wasn’t happy with their secret, but he knew that there was no point to whine and be harsh to Junsu anymore.
The youngest Kim walked inside the bath. He was happy that now his relationship with Yoochun looked more real. It was complicated; he still needed to be careful. He couldn’t leave any mark on Yoochun’s body, yet he had to put up looking at the marks that his brother made on him. He couldn’t call Yoochun every time he wanted either.
But today was different, today was a special day and Junsu couldn’t stop thinking of all the things that Yoochun and him would do.
After the bath, Junsu went back to the kitchen, everything was ready.
It was actually quite funny because it was his birthday yet he was the one cooking and making the party. He was fine with that though. Yoochun would come, he would have fun and obey Junsu’s every wish, but Yoochun wasn’t going to initiate the party or maybe he didn’t even remember it was his birthday. Junsu was fine with that too. He was fine.
I’m fine, Junsu repeated to himself all the time.
Finally the doorbell rang. Junsu smiled and happily went to open the door.
“Chunnie!” he jumped to hug the man.
Yoochun didn’t return the affectionate act, but he didn’t push him either. Junsu was used to it.
Unexpectedly after a few seconds of the hug Junsu felt Yoochun’s arms embrace his body, just slightly, but he did.
“Happy birthday,” Yoochun murmured quietly.
Junsu was too happy to even say thank you. He just grinned like idiot and jumped to kiss the man’s lips.
They both walked back into the apartment where a big banquet was waiting ready on the table.
“I worked really hard on the food, is my first time cooking but I’m sure it tastes delicious.”
Yoochun look at the food. “Why do I have the feeling that I will get poison?”
Junsu pouted. “You are so mean, I worked really hard, you know? I have to take cooking classes aside from working at the company, it was so tiring.”
“I didn’t ask you to take classes though.”
“Ungrateful.”
After discussing a little bit more about how Junsu didn’t have to do useless things for Yoochun when the latter didn’t ask him to, the boys sat down and ate the food.
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Jaejoong was at his parents’ house. Today was Junsu’s birthday. They called him to see if they could celebrate the boy’s birthday, but Junsu simply say no. Yoochun was nowhere to be found either.
Thinking about Yoochun, Jaejoong’s troubling thoughts came back. He didn’t know what to think. Yoochun wasn’t acting strange, he acted just as always. But Jaejoong wasn’t stupid. Yoochun getting lost once in a while. Him coming home late more than twice a week. He just couldn’t put aside those feelings inside of him. There was that voice telling him that Yoochun was looking someone else.
He sighed thinking about that.
“Is there something wrong, baby?” asked Mrs. Kim worried about her son.
Jaejoong looked at the woman, he wasn’t sure if sharing his concern with his mother was the best thing to do. “There’s nothing wrong, mom,” he smiled.
“Do you think I’m stupid? I know you, Jaejoong, and you are not okay.”
Jaejoong chuckled hearing that. “I don’t know mom, I just think that I’m seeing things where there aren’t any.”
“What do you mean, baby. Is there something wrong with Yoochun?”
Thinking about this and actually saying it was so much different. “I think Yoochun is having an affair,” he said in a quiet voice.
Mrs. Kim was taken aback; she wasn’t expecting something like this. Yoochun was a really nice guy, he was really kind and considerate, and thinking that he might be cheating on Jaejoong was something Mrs. Kim never thought will come into discussion. “What makes you think that,” she asked as she sat next to her son.
“I’m not dumb, mom. Yoochun comes home late, he comes and showers right away, or he comes already showered. We… we haven’t really have an active intimate relationship lately. Yes, we do have sex once in a while, but is usually because I start it, I don’t even think he desires me anymore.”
“Is your life, baby, I don’t see what you see and that’s why I won’t defend him, but you have to think wisely about this. If Yoochun is not cheating on you but you accused him of it without the right of doubt, things can get complicated.”
Jaejoong was aware of that, that was the reason he hasn’t ask his husband. He didn’t want to lose Yoochun’s trusts, but at this point he didn’t know what to do anymore.
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“You won’t even sing happy birthday to me,” pouted Junsu.
The two men were sitting on the couch watching a romantic film that Junsu had rented. The younger boy has decided to enjoy the movie and just have a good time with Yoochun, but it was so hard to control his feelings. He decided not to have sex with Yoochun since two weeks ago just so this day would be special. All those weeks were having their effect now.
Yoochun simply kept looking straight ahead. “No,” he said without remorse.
Junsu did what he would always do when Yoochun acted that way, he smiled. “You are so mean.”
To protect his heart, Junsu would always do that, he smiled and took Yoochun’s words as a joke.
“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear, Junsu, happy birthday to you. Happy?”
Junsu laughed with his distinctive eu kyang kyang. “You didn’t even sing it,” he giggled.
“Be happy with it, I’m not doing anything else.”
“You are not as mean as I thought,” he smiled again, this time a genuine smile.
Junsu leaned his head on Yoochun’s shoulder. Having a decent conversation was now more common, Junsu really liked it.
The younger boy tried to get closer to the other man, if that was even possible. He then lifted his face and whispered. “I love you.”
Five minutes later, there was no response from Yoochun. Junsu didn’t say anything either, he just hide his face on Yoochun’s cloths. He wasn’t expecting to hear Yoochun saying “I love you” but that didn’t mean that he didn’t have a little bit of hope. He wanted Yoochun to realize about his feelings, yes, Junsu actually believed that Yoochun was in love with him but that he was too stubborn to admit it. He was sure of it, or so he liked to think.
“Make love to me,” said Junsu. The silent was just too awkward at the moment.
Yoochun stood up. He was also feeling awkward and didn’t want to keep with their little confession. He knew Junsu felt something for him, he wasn’t stupid, but he really liked to think that it was just mere obsession, just a game.
Junsu tried to take off Yoochun’s clothes as the other man touch him.
The older man took Junsu’s pants as fast as he could. He placed his face over Junsu’s throbbing cock. He loved the smell of the piece of meat; it was for sure one of his favorite smells. Junsu always felt shy when Yoochun would do that. It was not that he didn’t like it, is just that he wanted to know what Yoochun was thinking every time he would do those kinds of things.
“Stop ah~” moaned Junsu. His boxers were still on, but every time Yoochun sniff deeper there was that ticklish feeling running through his whole body.
Yoochun wondered why, why did he like to be with Junsu so much? Yes, he was not going to lie and say that Junsu’s touch wasn’t pleasurable for him. He was not going to lie and say that he didn’t want Junsu at all. Thinking about his life without Junsu, it was just too weird.
But then again, thinking of his life without Jaejoong was terrifying as well.
With gentle hands he pulled down Junsu’s boxers admiring the erected member. There was pre-cum already coming out of the tip. He leaned in again to lick the crystal liquid. Junsu’s toes tensed and twisted trying to calm down just a little bit the overwhelming feeling.
Junsu pouted, Yoochun simply teased him and now he was standing up. “What are you doing?” he asked as he sat up.
“Taking my clothes off, obviously.”
Junsu grinned and lay down on the couch again.
Without waiting any second, Yoochun parted Junsu’s legs so he could get in between them. The younger boy held the other boy’s neck kissing him with passion as Yoochun kept rubbing his fingers against his nipples, his shirt lifted up making his chest visible.
With skilled hands, Yoochun opened the lube that he had taken from his pants moments ago. Junsu wasn’t letting go of his lips, so he tried to find the boy’s entrance putting the liquid over it once he did.
“Ahr~” growled Junsu feeling two of Yoochun’s fingers inside of him.
He wanted him so bad.
“Now… please,” tried to say the boy as clearly as he could.
Yoochun didn’t waste any second after hearing Junsu’s begging voice. He lifted the boy’s hips placing them at the right level.
“AH~”
Having Yoochun inside of him was always so pleasurable. Junsu didn’t like the fact that even after those years he was still unable to satisfy the older man without having the help from the latter. He didn’t want to be just that younger boy that Yoochun was fucking. But then, he wasn’t even good nor was he an expert in this field.
Yoochun slammed his hips against Junsu’s butt with vigor.
“Ah~! Ah~”
Their moans and groans filled the room in a question of seconds. Junsu felt in paradise. Yoochun, Yoochun felt dirty, but that was nothing new.
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After four rounds the two boys were in Junsu’s bedroom. Junsu looked at Yoochun putting his clothes on. He bit his lips trying to contain all the emotions that were forming inside of his chest. “Stay,” he said in a little voice.
Yoochun didn’t stop. This was something that they have decided long time ago; he was not going to stay because he knew that Jaejoong would be waiting for him. Junsu has agreed with Yoochun back then because he knew that Yoochun was right.
“Stay,” he repeated
Yoochun turned back to look at the boy. “I have to go and you know it. Is already late.”
“But is my birthday, don’t you think that I deserved to have you for at least a few more hours. Just stay tonight, please.”
Yoochun didn’t want to stay there, he didn’t want to do something like that to Jaejoong, it was bad enough what was happening with his brother, to act indifferent or to ignore him was something he always tried not to do. It was hard, especially at the time of intimacy.
He tried to go back to get dress but Junsu’s face was just too much. He hated to make him cry, he hated to make Jaejoong cry, it was just too complicated. He just couldn’t please the two boys.
“Alright,” he said.
Junsu smiled happily and made space on the bed so Yoochun could lie with him.
Yoochun lay next to Junsu and the boy soon used the man’s chest as his pillow. Soon the younger boy felt asleep.
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Jaejoong walked back and forth in the living room. He had been waiting for Yoochun for hours but the man was still nowhere to be found.
“You are still awake?” was the first thing that came from Yoochun’s mouth once he got home.
Jaejoong looked furious, he frowned. “Where were you? I had been waiting for hours, and I didn’t see you in the whole day.”
Yoochun’s heart hurt. Jaejoong was probably the last person on the world that deserved something like this. “I’m sorry, I was at my friend’s house, I just lost sense of time.”
“Friend’s house?” Yoochun nodded.
The man knew that conversing longer would mean trouble for him, so he decided to stop it. “I’m really sorry. You must be tired, let’s go to sleep.”
Jaejoong wasn’t happy with the answer. Having Yoochun come home this late was like a confirmation of his affair. He shook his head, he needed to be sure of it, he didn’t want to lose Yoochun’s trust.
But, what would he do if Yoochun was actually cheating on him? What would he do then?
Not wanting to think about that anymore the man walked with Yoochun to their bedroom.
Chapter 6