Someday(Us Against the World...Isn't That What You Said Baby?)
Someday when the words are right...
and the lights are not so bright,
and the moon isn't quite so dazzling.
I will risk everything to put my heart back on my sleeve with a thumb tack and offer it to you with a silent smile and hope that you see right through the mask, because I am just another fool. A fool who's still in love with you after all of these years.
A fool wasting her time writing words to a blank screen,
because everyone knows your dead and buried.
they put you in a box with my heart... and threw dirt on my soul.
But they couldn't take you away from my dreams.... because even though I'm still breathing... I'll always find you there.
and someday it will be you and I again baby... Us against the world,
but until that day comes.... I'm just a ghost... the amazon chick still dreaming.
Because you told me no matter how horrible life got or how much my family tried to make me crazy... never to stop dreaming.
Because it's our dreams that let us know we still -exist-... we still have a soul... and we're still real and not a cheap dime a dozen plastic glow in the dark star that used to hang from the rear view mirror of your fancy sports car.
I remember you loved that car...
and I loved you even as I joked about hijacking it and you laughed at my idiocy saying you'd choose me over the car any day.
I swear it on my soul... and my life... and everything I am. I'll keep dreaming for you... because you promised no matter what happened... It would be US against the world... and you want to know what babe? It still is... because I'm still real...just like the car I sold to the junk yard for fifty dollars and laughed while it burned.
I never stopped dreaming and never will. Because when you stop dreaming... that's when you die (Or so they tell me).... and I wonder... is that what happened to you?
It shouldn't hurt so badly after all these years... but it does and I'm still holding on to that cheap plastic, broken glow in the dark star.... because it's the only thing you left behind along with these dreams. And it's all I need to get me by to make it through the day.
~C~
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