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You are the Fire Witch! You are a pure fire of
passion. You ignight flames of desire in others
and bring pleasures in love. You are always one
to make temperatures rise.
Which witch are you?
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Small update for you people about Lawrence.
...he's been home since Friday. The 13th. So yes. I didn't find that out until Tuesday, when Amber called and told me that she'd seen him out with Charles. She didn't tell me.. -everything-, though. She told me that.. he didn't intend on ever telling me that he was home. That.. we weren't dating and that he had to talk to me. Amongst a few other choice tidbits. Now since I haven't confronted him on this yet, I.. can't really accuse him of anything. I can assume, yes. Because I've been assuming all day today, which resulted in me having a nervous breakdown. From the things that Amber have told me, to the past things that he's done, I can only assume the worse. Because, well. He lied to me, for one, about his staying over at Iraq for two years, when it was only supposed to be forteen months. ...though he did.. mention.. "or maybe sooner". I don't know. I just.. don't understand. All I know, is what Charles, his roommate, has told me. That Lawrence has gotten drunk everyday since he got back. I don't know if that's the reason why he's acting like this or what. ..but I have to find out, or it's just going to keep eating at me, and eating at me. It already is stressing me out beyond belief. I can't eat, when I think about food, I get nauseaous. I can't sleep because I can't stop wondering what's going on. The only time I've been able to calm down and think coherently, are the times I talked to Noah. He has a calming affect on me, thankfully. But yeah.. I'm just not well, and the past week has been utter Hell on my system. And whoever said that crying helps needs to be shot. I cried for a good hour today until I was hyperventilating and a few breaths away from fainting. That didn't help me. It especially didn't help when I tried to stumble over to the couch.
*Shakes head* ...anyway... if I don't talk to any of you for the next week or so, I'm sorry. I'm just stressed, and I don't want to take it out on any of you. However, if you happen to have me on AIM and see some disturbing away messages, please. PLEASE say something to me. Because at that point, stuff has probably happened between Lawrence and I, and I'm back to being stupid and suicidal.
I love you guys.