Advent Confessional

[aongeli]

The church I attend here in Warsaw is holding confessions during advent; I am unable to attend but I need it just the same. I have been realizing some things about myself, and I need to confess; so why not here? Most of you who even still read this, I trust not to judge me too harshly. Not sure I'm ready to throw these ideas around where my parents

Comments

[tea_and_trees]

I don't have any advice, but I will pray for you.

*hugs*

[jadusty]

I will pray for you as well, and will try to call some time in the next few days

[blindaurora]

I am afraid too. I do not pretend to know exactly how you feel, but I simpathize very much. And I love you. Your discription of your experience sounds very much like how I felt while living in Boone and after I returned to JC for a long time

[fjorab_teke]

Wow, i had no idea you felt like this. I think you're awesome and smart and very capable of anything you set out to do. I hope you find the means within yourself to pursue it.

I won't pretend i know what it's like for you, either, but i think this is a demon we share. I would rather not bother if it feels likely that i'll fall short of my or someone else's expectations. It was like that in school, reinforced by my 7th grade teacher who would mark a homework assignment off if something was wrong - either way, it was punishment unless it was perfect. Another teacher found some of my homework in the trash because it wasn't perfect enough to turn in. I still struggle with versions of it today.

Hopefully we'll both find suitable means to defeat it - and quit defeating ourselves. :-)