A return from introspection.
I haven't been writing many things down lately, because I've been brooding, and it's been mostly staying within the walls of my own head.
I'm rather pleased nights at the club have been calm, lately. I thought I was going to have to start drugging the water, for a while.
Filtered: Sengoku
Thank you for taking care of Kikumaru. He seems less dejected, and is having a much easier time of staying out of trouble.
Filtered: Tezuka
I hope you're feeling better? Things at the club seem to have quieted a bit. Were you still interested in mixing lessons?
Filtered: Taki
I love you.
Private:
We haven't spoken of the incident, but I'd almost prefer it stayed that way. I don't feel comfortable talking about my negative feelings in the matter, and it would only serve to upset Taki further. I only wish I knew what to do to prevent future occurrences of similar fashion. I suppose I will have to deal with those as they come. When Taki is being himself, the chance of something like that happening is slim to none... but there are times when he is simply unpredictable and hides within himself. When he does that, even I can't figure out with any kind of certainty what he's going to do, or why. It frustrates me, because it's not something I can manipulate and avoid happening. I dislike not being in control of a situation. And I further dislike disturbances in what should be something happy.
I suppose such is the nature of the human mind. But I don't have to like it.
I'm rather pleased nights at the club have been calm, lately. I thought I was going to have to start drugging the water, for a while.
Filtered: Sengoku
Thank you for taking care of Kikumaru. He seems less dejected, and is having a much easier time of staying out of trouble.
Filtered: Tezuka
I hope you're feeling better? Things at the club seem to have quieted a bit. Were you still interested in mixing lessons?
Filtered: Taki
I love you.
Private:
We haven't spoken of the incident, but I'd almost prefer it stayed that way. I don't feel comfortable talking about my negative feelings in the matter, and it would only serve to upset Taki further. I only wish I knew what to do to prevent future occurrences of similar fashion. I suppose I will have to deal with those as they come. When Taki is being himself, the chance of something like that happening is slim to none... but there are times when he is simply unpredictable and hides within himself. When he does that, even I can't figure out with any kind of certainty what he's going to do, or why. It frustrates me, because it's not something I can manipulate and avoid happening. I dislike not being in control of a situation. And I further dislike disturbances in what should be something happy.
I suppose such is the nature of the human mind. But I don't have to like it.