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[apassivedream]

that scared me........Michael, if you're reading this, I love you. I really do. Unequivocally. For a little while I was scared....we weren't TALKING as much as we were FUCKING, and I love the sex, but it started to make me nervous.....I don't know what it is that makes me fear for us when I know everything's ok, but I do. Maybe it's because....well

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[happygoodlive]

Baby, you don't have to worry about us. I only wish that you would explain WHY you feel this way. You never once, in this long, love filled post, why you are so scared. "that scared me" WHAT THE FUCK SCARED YOU?

Anyway, baby, it's ok. I know where you are coming from when you say that we weren't talking as much as we were fucking...Partly because we only have had enough time recently to fuck, but also because this is new to me. I haven't ever been as close to anyone as I am right now. And honestly, I'm scared to. But with things like this, I don't have to worry, because I know that whatever I do, you'll still love me. And I appreciate that. Because I fuck up. Like everyone else. The only problem is is that most people aren't nearly as forgiving as you are...Well, to end this post, I love you, sweetheart, and I would never do anything to fuck this up. Now I'm going to watch the tape of today's show :-P

[apassivedream]

oh, the scared thing...yeah, it was that day (wednesday...?) when you were supposed to drop.....and almost knew you would be dirty.....yeah. You actually called me right as I was about to write that post, telling me it was ok, but I was really scared you were....I dunno, in jail.

And you're right....whatever you do, I'll still love you. I know you fuck up--I fuck up too. It happens. And I'll always be there when no-one else forgives you--I care about you too deeply to let a human mistake ruin what have easily been the best 4 1/2 months of my life.

I miss you right now, because you're in Pheonix, and I can't wait 'til you get back so I can do something sappily movie-romantic like tackle you and cover you with kisses. I love you Michael!

--Nico

by the way, great job on yesterdays show!