weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee new bikes..

[apemahn]

today my weight sits at 229. WOOT!
this is a huge thing and i am happy, at the same time it has been a huge hurdle to get to this and i know that getting below will be a bit of work. I have watched myself yo-yo in the last couple of months.

Some dipshit stole a car, got drunk and ran from the cops down my street a month or so ago. The idiot ran into

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Re: Be sure to take it easy on yourself

[apemahn]

thanks for the well-wishes Dave! I will post a pic or 2 on here, as i think seeing myself more often will reinforce the changes that i am making. that is the other problem--i am still seeing a fat person in my mirror looking back at me. i hear all these great things about me shrinking, etc (and it IS great to hear!) but i still see the old ape for the most part. I see a smaller one--granted. It's just hard. Also, thank you for the link to your friend. Yea i agree on the faith-based blah blah, it was just one of 2 ppl that came up in a search on anger management people in the austin area.

monkeyshroom@hotmail.com send me your email. i have many questions--you will start charging me!

I am practicing receiving compliments. i think this is a first step in changing my attitude.

love,
ape

[libbyt]

i can definitely relate to this post on so many levels. i am just now reaching the point where i am confident and comfortable with myself. people can be very mean and prejudiced toward overweight people. my esteem suffered tremendously for a very long time. i used to look in the mirror and get depressed. i didn't even want to go out sometimes. i'm not sure at what point it changed but now when i look in the mirror, i am generally pleased. this was a huge deal for me. it's not just physical but i had a mental shift in how i view myself

[apemahn]

much love back to you Rachel.
Your note makes me smile. i have felt the same way looking in the mirror. the place where i notice the difference is in pictures. the mirror still pisses me off, though i think i am cuter. also, i can wear regular womans size XL instead of just plus size. that is SUPER exciting.

monkeyshroom@hotmail.com

[amyonfire]

here - practice receiving compliments...

i think you're amazing, and i'm so proud of you!

[apemahn]

i think you are pretty bad-ass yourself, Aim and i love you. Thank you very much for the kind words!