[censors right testicle only!]maple_sicklesAugust 1 2010, 05:31:47 UTC
[squeezes her hand back, setting a quick, aggressive pace--but not aggressive in an angry sense, more that he's trying to drown inside her, and pull her into him at the same time]
[cries out when she nips him, falling off his rhythm a bit]
[cries out as his skin is flayed open by her eager nails]
[hurts so good]
[this is the best kind of hurt, not like...]
[flashback]
[not like the bone-deep hurt, that wrenching ache he felt with a shovel's blade digging in deep below his sternum in the pitch black, how he pulled tighter on the wire, so he couldn't hear the voice of his attacker, how determined he was to choke the life out of them before he... died...]
[Her face, going blue, eyes pleading in the sudden light, but it was too late, too late for him to let go too late for him to move... he only had time to be horrified, to feel that awful wrench before he]
[was]
[too]
[far]
[away...]
[present]
[he's still suddenly, clinging to her for all he's worth and looking at her with an utterly haunted expression]
[is ashen-faced and shaking, on the verge of tears]
[the People's Tool has forfeited a bit of its former glory]
[looks so, so lost]
I'm so sorry...
[In that moment thinking no, no, no, impossible, not her, can't be her, anyone, anything but her... what about their child... she can't die]
[He wants to apologize but he's cold all over and nothing's working and when he opens his mouth only blood comes out and it's her he's killed... This is all wrong; it isn't fair]
[It isn't fair]
[finally loses it, holding onto her as tightly as possible, fingers digging into her skin]
[his shoulders are shaking a bit]
[very faintly, face pressed against her hair, he's sobbing]
...
[slowly opens her eyes]
[feels the leaves beneath her]
M-matthew?
[is this real?]
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[releases his belt]
[goes for the main button]
[pulls
zipper
down]
[reaches in and strokes upward]
[spreads her fingers over him]
[opens up to him]
Please, Matthew.
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[slips his fingers free of her and takes a greedy feel of her ass and naked thigh with his most hand]
[assumes the position!]
I'm here, sweet. I'm here.
[slides in, and it's warm and familiar and the closest thing to home he's ever known]
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Matthew...
[runs hands up and encircle him]
[pulls him down for a long, deep kiss while legs wrap around his waist]
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I love you.
[says this a few more times for good measure as her legs tug him in close]
[grip on her bottom tightens]
[begins to move]
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I love you, Matthew.
[moans into his shoulder before nipping on this neck]
Always-
[tightens her hold]
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[cries out when she nips him, falling off his rhythm a bit]
[grinds his hips a bit when he's in deep]
Forever.
[whispers her name over and over]
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[and rough]
[gasps, it's almost too much but]
Never enough, closer...you-
[kisses furiously]
[and again]
[digs her nail in on his shoulder]
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[memorizes every curve, every expression, every scent]
[is officially addicted]
Don't ever leave.
[pants harshly, grunting in pain-pleasure when she digs her nails in... breaks the skin...]
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[this musky, always slightly blood scent that is him]
Never. Always with you-
[goes in for another deep kiss]
[draws her nails down his back]
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[hurts so good]
[this is the best kind of hurt, not like...]
[flashback]
[not like the bone-deep hurt, that wrenching ache he felt with a shovel's blade digging in deep below his sternum in the pitch black, how he pulled tighter on the wire, so he couldn't hear the voice of his attacker, how determined he was to choke the life out of them before he... died...]
[Her face, going blue, eyes pleading in the sudden light, but it was too late, too late for him to let go too late for him to move... he only had time to be horrified, to feel that awful wrench before he]
[was]
[too]
[far]
[away...]
[present]
[he's still suddenly, clinging to her for all he's worth and looking at her with an utterly haunted expression]
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[sudden stillness]
[looks at his expression]
Ma-t-
[he's looking at her the same way when]
[darkness fell, can't see where are you who]
[the air, she couldn't breathe, don't panic- attack- she knew they were bleeding..but so hard, the pressure, waiting to yell but she couldn't-]
[his eyes...so sad]
[letting go of the shovel, sinking down]
[calling]
[can't see]
[Matthew]
[where are you]
...
[reaches up with shaking hands]
[cups this face]
Matthew?
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[the People's Tool has forfeited a bit of its former glory]
[looks so, so lost]
I'm so sorry...
[In that moment thinking no, no, no, impossible, not her, can't be her, anyone, anything but her... what about their child... she can't die]
[He wants to apologize but he's cold all over and nothing's working and when he opens his mouth only blood comes out and it's her he's killed... This is all wrong; it isn't fair]
[It isn't fair]
[finally loses it, holding onto her as tightly as possible, fingers digging into her skin]
[his shoulders are shaking a bit]
[very faintly, face pressed against her hair, he's sobbing]
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-
[he's dying]
[Matthew?]
[can't breathe]
[nations can't die]
[how could you he's the one you]
[what is a nation]
[promise I can show you what comes after]
[I know this can't last]
[forever]
[alone]
...
......
[embraces him furiously]
[shaking, crying]
it's not your fault, it's not your fault...
[holds onto him tightly]
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[try as he might he only ends up sobbing harder]
[pets her hair almost mechanically, twirling the ends around his fingers]
[gasps for air]
Please believe I'd never...
I could never...
I'm so sorry...
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[crying and stroking over his back]
[can't let go]
Matthew...
[shifts to look at him]
I know. But I...
[touches the side of his neck]
I hurt you. Many times.
[swallows hard]
Please forgive me.
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