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so yesterday was like the longest day of my life. long story/day short: lots of freshmen drama, sad friendship moments, death (only one), and then there was a situation involving saying things about people standing right next to jess and i, which resulted in me screaming and running away ( Read more... )

spent a lot of time outside today after comparing tan-ness to cousin. i used to be the super tall super tan one. am not tan. am not tall (er). well i guess thats to be expected since he is a guy. i mean that he should be taller, not tanner lol. wow. i am having a stupid day. before i told my mother that i may take spanish and french but i cant ( Read more... )

in the end its not about what you or i want ( Read more... )

i just want to take a minute to apologize to everyone. i have been really selfish lately and caught up in my own problem, but i know everyone is having problems lately. i was just reading ljs and as pathetic as it sounds it just hit me that everyone has something going wrong, some problem that they cant stop thinking about and i am really sorry. i ( Read more... )

i am restless. got nice stuff. loads of money, some necklaces and earrings, CD's (probably my favorite part), unsmakeable markers, etc. but i just feel, unsettled. so, i dont know...fragile? i hate to use that word because it makes me sound so...weak? Vulnerable? but i guess thats what i am. i guess thats what i let myself be. i've brought this on ( Read more... )

i really wish someone could think of the right thing to tell me or a solution to my problem. everyone i tell just says umm well i just dont know, this is tough. YAH. I KNOW. maybe i am being ridiculous and selfish but right now i just really wish someone had an answer, because he doesnt and i dont. maybe i should write to dr phil. or oprah. of ( Read more... )

yay the clock on my computer is finally fixed, so it really is the right time on this entry!! yay. that was bothering me. drama is...tiring. my costume has more issues then jerry springer, and its almost as slutty. not a good sign. i am so tired, but i cant seem to sleep. might be posting writing i did last night while being unable to sleep. maybe.

wow. it all feels so unreal. did that happen? did he just say that? it must have, he must have, because i cant stop crying. the weird thing is, i feel numb. the worst part is, i wish things didnt have to change at all. i wish we could act the way we have all along. because now i know how he feels so now i can function without thinking about what is ( Read more... )

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