Sometimes.

[apisatcommander]

I feel really really dumb.

I feel like I make waaay too many mistakes.

I feel like it's impossible for me to get what I want.

What I want is to not be with him, and be with him.

There are a couple him's in my life, one who is making my life difficult. One who is making my life bearable.

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[_imacliche]

hmmmmmmmm.
call me.

[i_am_a_rocker]

Someone very wise once told me something to the effect of, "Beau, at some point in your life there will probably be a time when trying to keep everyone happy is impossible. Sometimes, you need to be a little selfish, 'cause otherwise, you end up just hurting yourself."

I dunno if it's quite right, but I guess it's one to think about.

[apisatcommander]

I have crossed the point.

It's already hurting... But still I have that stupid fear of hurting some one else.

[i_am_a_rocker]

=(

I can't make the decisions for you, but I hope that you make the one that makes you the most happy.