'A plateau is always in the middle, not at the beginning or the end...[it is] a continuous, self-vibrating region of intensities whose development avoids any orientation toward a culmination point or external end ( Read more... )

i feel that i should update, though i don't have much to say for myself. i'm fine, i'm busy. those two are reciprocal, i think. i have much more self-discipline now than i used to, but i think the realisation that has prompted it is that i simply can't function if i indulge my natural tendency towards laziness and procrastination. 'idle will kill ( Read more... )

i slept really late today (well, noon) and it feels quite good. i think the thing about treating your education like a job is that self-discipline can often become sheer guilt. if you don't read as much as you'd like to, or you get up ten minutes later than you should, it's hard not to feel a bit shitty. because i understand now, in a way that i ( Read more... )

i've been really, really, seriously bored in the evenings recently. i guess it's because i don't have money to go anywhere or do anything, so i just stay in the house. but i'm sure that used to be fine, i'd find enjoyable things to do ( Read more... )

since i got my results a few days ago, i've been (over)thinking the future. colin's very useful and encouraging advice about applying for funding from the AHRC has caused me to reflect on how (relatively) impending the process of kickstarting my academic career is. when i apply for funding in the not-too-distant future i need to have a provisional ( Read more... )

i like starting sentences with 'so' that don't refer to any preceding statement, almost as much as i like ending sentences with 'so ( Read more... )

last night i slept alone for the first time in a while, and i was lying in bed (listening to whiskeytown, so excuse any latent melancholy) thinking about how, at least in our culture, sleep is either the loneliest or most intimate of activities. inasmuch as it can be called an activity ( Read more... )

i read through my livejournal and found little but self-indulgence and bitterness. i'm bored of that. so, a rebranding ( Read more... )