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[appearstobe]

I didn't want to say before, because you'd worry. But at the hospital.. I would've lost the baby if it wasn't already.. the way it is. Immortal. Can't die, even how he or she is now.

I don't know what to do now. I suppose I'm asking for help, advice, guidance. But if it's too intruding, I'm sorry. Is this how it feels? Like they've ripped out

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[twilightrobe]

Thank fuck the baby's already got his or her mojo. If we'd lost our baby too... fuck. I was willing to do anything to save the baby. I was ready to do whatever they told me. I could never even conceive of feeling like that before.

I wish you never had to feel what you're feeling now. It was just like you described it. Just... a loss so great, it was more than pain. It was gaping vacuum. People who try to define pain have never felt that void. That's the fucking terror. I just want to make it stop, for you, for everyone.

Kay, what happened was not your fault. It was the fault of the Templar, of Holden, of Caoilfhionn, of every man or woman who's ever used the name of God to propogate evil. You were just trying to help people, to do something good and kind. It's beyond wrong that Ella had to die for that. No one should die for kindness. It's not fair, not fair at all. It's wretched and shitty and fucked up

[appearstobe]

Tamm, can you come to Carla's? I need you, I just want to cry and cry and I can't keep doing that to her.

[twilightrobe]

I'll be out the door by the time you read this, love.