So I don't feel obligated BUT
in a roundabout way I do... I don't normally explain myself but I don't know... I've been actually having this dwell on my subconsious and I figured... screw it and just do it.
I had a weird dream bout it last night and I don't know. It's been dwiddling on my mind SOOOO without further adu *or names*
1...::Fuck It::..
2.Blame me all you want. I never demanded anything.
3.Hate me all you want. I never made his choices.
4.I have nothing more to say.
5.Nothing I have to say is optomistic or sugar coated anymore because
6.you just proved what I didn't want to believe to.
ok by numbers here...
1. - I was just tired of sitting back and letting things happen. I've been trying to stay OUT of this, even though I was always kept directly involved. All I wanted to do was keep friends... all I wanted to do was to have everything back to "normal" I kept blaming myself, and kept getting told it most of it wasn't. I also wasn't about to just walk away from things that I grew to care about so I didn't.
2. - I never told anyone they had to make choices, nor did I bad mouth anyone. I kept to my feelings bout how things made me felt and tried to keep in mind others. But I never gave ultimatums.
3. - I never told anyone what to do. I simply made it known that there was someone there.
4. - I lied... hence this post. And number 5 and 6 had more to say. But about 2 and 3 there was nothing more to say about that.
5. - I don't like ranting about people in a bad way for the most part. I was frustrated about a few things, this post wasn't directed to one person. But it wasn't a means of me saying fuck you all. just me frustrated and tired of sitting back.
6. - I believed in the best of everyone... I tried to be optomistic about everything and not believe that something would happen or that people would say one thing then do another. it happened though and I was like... great not again. Just really got me down bc once again.. I like to think the best of everyone. it actually made me cry a little bit. anyway
I had no obligation with that except my own feeling to. I'm not going to say sorry though bc this is how I felt and I still stand by it more or less.
anyway on happier note. my head feels like it's going to splode! *livin le gir wordage!=D*
really that's all i came on here to do. so to bed I go!
I had a weird dream bout it last night and I don't know. It's been dwiddling on my mind SOOOO without further adu *or names*
1...::Fuck It::..
2.Blame me all you want. I never demanded anything.
3.Hate me all you want. I never made his choices.
4.I have nothing more to say.
5.Nothing I have to say is optomistic or sugar coated anymore because
6.you just proved what I didn't want to believe to.
ok by numbers here...
1. - I was just tired of sitting back and letting things happen. I've been trying to stay OUT of this, even though I was always kept directly involved. All I wanted to do was keep friends... all I wanted to do was to have everything back to "normal" I kept blaming myself, and kept getting told it most of it wasn't. I also wasn't about to just walk away from things that I grew to care about so I didn't.
2. - I never told anyone they had to make choices, nor did I bad mouth anyone. I kept to my feelings bout how things made me felt and tried to keep in mind others. But I never gave ultimatums.
3. - I never told anyone what to do. I simply made it known that there was someone there.
4. - I lied... hence this post. And number 5 and 6 had more to say. But about 2 and 3 there was nothing more to say about that.
5. - I don't like ranting about people in a bad way for the most part. I was frustrated about a few things, this post wasn't directed to one person. But it wasn't a means of me saying fuck you all. just me frustrated and tired of sitting back.
6. - I believed in the best of everyone... I tried to be optomistic about everything and not believe that something would happen or that people would say one thing then do another. it happened though and I was like... great not again. Just really got me down bc once again.. I like to think the best of everyone. it actually made me cry a little bit. anyway
I had no obligation with that except my own feeling to. I'm not going to say sorry though bc this is how I felt and I still stand by it more or less.
anyway on happier note. my head feels like it's going to splode! *livin le gir wordage!=D*
really that's all i came on here to do. so to bed I go!