maybe yes, maybe no. i'll tell you anyway: i've been kind of happy the past week, but yesterday was a crazy day, bringing up all the old hurts, and today i slept in after many a strange dream, & am having a stiff drink of gin and la limonata sanpellegrino before work. i work at the strangest place in the world, i think, or maybe everything is just strange when you think of it that way. i am listening to nina simone, "i think it's going to rain today", and it is...it smells fine, and i am happier when it's rainy & soggy out. i wonder what that says about me. i have to stop missing what once was.
posting a new comment is a good way to reveal secrets. i hope all is well with you.
(time passes anyway)applenoireAugust 4 2007, 17:27:37 UTC
i love your icon. i think i've said it before. how will your escape go? mine's been interrupted by a surprise scene featuring the old me. darn, i guess she's not dead yet.
one more secret: i'm having one more drink (i normally don't drink much anymore) and then i'm going to hop on my bike and ride to work, hopefully somewhat cheerfully with my music streaming directly into my ears, and hopefully the mood will be more sombre on account of the dreary weather. i don't know if i want to be left alone or not. it's hard to say.
i wish love to everyone (i'm not saying this because i'm drinking, but because i really believe it). i know how hard it can be, for everyone who lives and opens their eyes on occassion.
Re: (time passes anyway)applepieskiesAugust 4 2007, 20:18:16 UTC
My escape is going to take a while before it can be put in action, but it will require me to move 2600 miles away from here to Kamloops, B.C. It's my chance to get away from all that is suffocating me here.
Sometimes we don't want people, we just want comfort in our hearts, our souls. And sometimes we forget how to provide that for ourselves.
I've done my best to love everyone. It's not easy but it's certainly worth it. To bring smiles to strangers. There was a times where I could not do that and I lived exactly how you describe, but now my eyes are always open and so I'm trying to help others to stay awake.
it makes my day when people take the time to say hello & whatnot.
another secret: i secretly enjoy people calling me miss. my nickname growing up was missy, short for melissa, and it warms my heart a little. makes me feel like a child, in a good way.
i have taken a pair of very similar photographs from my bedroom window. not for this reason though do i really enjoy your photogprahs and so have added you.
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want to know a secret?
maybe yes, maybe no. i'll tell you anyway:
i've been kind of happy the past week,
but yesterday was a crazy day, bringing up all the old hurts,
and today i slept in after many a strange dream,
& am having a stiff drink of gin and la limonata sanpellegrino before work.
i work at the strangest place in the world, i think,
or maybe everything is just strange when you think of it that way.
i am listening to nina simone, "i think it's going to rain today",
and it is...it smells fine, and i am happier when it's rainy & soggy out.
i wonder what that says about me.
i have to stop missing what once was.
posting a new comment is a good way to reveal secrets.
i hope all is well with you.
take cares
x
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Plotting my escape.
Letting go of all the things that would have never been mine anyway.
The photos,
it's as if letting go has made your view clearer.
Gotten rid of old static.
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how will your escape go?
mine's been interrupted by a surprise scene featuring the old me. darn,
i guess she's not dead yet.
one more secret:
i'm having one more drink (i normally don't drink much anymore)
and then i'm going to hop on my bike and ride to work, hopefully
somewhat cheerfully with my music streaming directly into my ears,
and hopefully the mood will be more sombre on account of the dreary weather.
i don't know if i want to be left alone or not. it's hard to say.
i wish love to everyone (i'm not saying this because i'm drinking,
but because i really believe it). i know how hard it can be, for everyone
who lives and opens their eyes on occassion.
you too, take care. thanks for saying hello.
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It's my chance to get away from all that is suffocating me here.
Sometimes we don't want people, we just want comfort in our hearts, our souls.
And sometimes we forget how to provide that for ourselves.
I've done my best to love everyone. It's not easy but it's certainly worth it. To bring smiles to strangers. There was a times where I could not do that and I lived exactly how you describe, but now my eyes are always open and so I'm trying to help others to stay awake.
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thanks.
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i added you miss applenoire
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it makes my day when people take the time to say hello & whatnot.
another secret:
i secretly enjoy people calling me miss.
my nickname growing up was missy, short for melissa,
and it warms my heart a little. makes me feel like a child, in a good way.
take cares
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