i move so much, i don't even know what time zone i'm in right now i don't cry anymore either, even when i should and even when i want to, i don't or can't and i'm not sure about very much at all
I have been having really intense dreams lately that make me kind of afraid to go to sleep. But at the same time, when I wake up I wish I could slip back into the dream again. I wish I knew more about dreams. I read an interesting quote the other day by this psychologist, I forget his name, where he said, "Dreams tell us where we are, not what to do".
i think i realized my desire to stay awake at the end of the day is to postpone the inevitability of tomorrow's disappointments--like, the sooner i fall asleep, the sooner tomorrow comes, and sometimes it's like i'm waiting to figure the puzzle out, and i don't want to give up on what i've gained during the day for it all to be lost during the night. strange.
I know what you're talking about. I have this feeling like going to sleep is kind of a way of giving up. Sometimes I force myself to stay awake because I feel like if I go to sleep, I will miss something that will sort of put everything to rest. Like if I wait long enough, I'll stumble on that final missing puzzle piece. I seem to be running into a lot of things lately that deal with losing something, and I guess I view sleep like what you said, losing what you've gained throughout the day. Strange, yes. You'd think if you view days as a series of disappointments, you'd kind of welcome sleep as an escape. But I guess it's kind of a no win situation-you sleep to escape one day only to wake up to another. I don't know if I've quite got all of that figured out yet. Why do these things have to be so complicated?
i feel almost the same. the not crying thing is strange. i wish i could, i've always cried alot, now i keep it all inside somehow. it dosn't feel healthy. i mean, there are still reasons to cry. is this growing up? i don't know if i like it.
i say that i'm a liar because i have to hide certain aspects of my self or my life to everyone i know (except for almost one individual), and it leads me to lie about where i've been, what i've been doing, who i've been seeing; i lie to my parents: i tell them i'm doing fine (i can't tell them the truth about certain problems i have) and i lie to this guy i'm "seeing". it makes me feel bad, 'cause i've always been pretty honest, but now i feel like such a two-timer, like i'm leading not only a double life, but a triple or quadruple. it's rough on me.
wow - yes indeed. ive been lyingo parents about everyone ive ever been seeing - if they found out it would be quite literally the end of the universe right there and then. but i wish you luck and hope things sort themselves out soon. <3
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i don't cry anymore either, even when i should and even when i want to, i don't
or can't and i'm not sure about very much at all
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the not crying thing is strange. i wish i could, i've always cried alot, now i keep it all inside somehow. it dosn't feel healthy. i mean, there are still reasons to cry.
is this growing up? i don't know if i like it.
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whats going on with you?
and yes that what you are describing, just sounds far too familiar.
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ive been lyingo parents about everyone ive ever been seeing - if they found out it would be quite literally the end of the universe right there and then.
but i wish you luck and hope things sort themselves out soon.
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thanks for the share, anyways. :)
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