still here haha. it's storming insanely outside and it's cool...but slightly freakish ( Read more... )

okay! no more easiness blah blah. i'm going to get serious after today. no more purging, no more bingeing...i just wish i had someone to kick my ass and make sure i don't do it. i am gonna get 100 by the school year ( Read more... )

well. i have a headache right now and i'm bored. i need a job...been waiting for anyone to call back on some of my applications. i'm not planning on eating today, but if i absolutely need to, i'll just have some rice later on tonight. i'd like to 100 pounds by the beginning of the next school year, i hope i can do it =) I'm pretty sure it's ( Read more... )

i'm kind of poking my stomach in fascination right now since i just binged while I'm listening to my mother having her lovely hateful outbursts downstairs. sucks having an angry insane alcoholic mother ( Read more... )

my throat hurts...my tongue's swollen...my stomach's horrendously unattractive...and i have no control anymore ( Read more... )

there's not many good communities anymore. the only thing i read in most of them is

"wow i'm fat, i'm going on a fast tomorrow." always tomorrow.

sigh.

on my way to mass. blah. i hate boarding schools. i'm not even religious.

boo i'm tired : [ couldn't get to sleep last night.

in a spur of the moment kind of thing i just chopped off a great deal of my hair : [ I haven't really let the shock sink in yet, but i'll burst out crying pretty soon. i'm sort of calmly crying right now, nothing major. feeling gloomy though.

damn. i'm so unhappy.

i broke up with my boyfriend (damn...i still feel uncomfortable with that word)...and to say the least some of his friends are giving me dirty looks. pathetic. sad. makes me feel disgustingly antisocial and in need of some serious alone time ( Read more... )

there are times when a person thinks they're happy and cheerful...etc, but the problem is it lasts for about 5 seconds, and then you're back to feeling sorry for yourself and upset. Bah, life sucks : ( I'm back at boarding school, but I feel like I'm caught between two worlds. I don't feel like I fit in all that well here, yet I sure as hell don ( Read more... )