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[aqheretbastmut]

You know what....I am going to respond

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[aqheretbastmut]

most days yes, today not so...

[aqheretbastmut]

Sis, as I said to you directly, I felt you had enough on your plate and as such, while I have prayed and sent to you, I've left you to sort your stuff out.

Hell yeah, there are times I wish you were on but your post explains why your not and that's fine.

Regretfully, I'm not at the place where you are. People here won't accept my mum's limitations so I cannot get a life outside of here, so that leaves me, for now in the pickle I am in.

[burned_rose]

I don't participate on the message boards or on the chat rooms or anything. I belong to KO just as much as anyone, but I don't participate in the social network. Even when I belonged to the Roman Catholic Church, I never socialized with my fellow worshipers. I apologize if you ever see this as rebuffing or ignoring you! Know that, no matter what route you chose with your life, it's really up to you in the end. It's your life, your choice. Do what makes you feel right.

-Imawiaset

[aqheretbastmut]

Thanks.

[shefytbast]

I can be socially very stupid. Also, a flake. And this is without taking into consideration situations of overwhelm and anxiety that sometimes cause me to run silently screaming from all contact. I say this not to excuse myself, but so that you know that a) someone else around here is also on the social short bus, and b) if I ever seem not to be responsive to you, it is almost certainly not you; it's that I'm lost somewhere inside my own head. Like you, I've improved in this area, but it's still very much a work in progress. Please be patient and obvious. ^_^

That said, I'm sorry that you've been feeling disconnected lately. I'm very rarely on AIM--if I'm on the computer at home, I'm usually working on something, and I have trouble concentrating if I chat--but if you ever do see me on (lapislynx), feel free to ping me. PMs are also a good way to reach me; I usually answer those quickly. (I'm kind of hit or miss on LJ posts.)

*offers hugs*

[aqheretbastmut]

Shefyt, you are not a flake and please don't ever say that about you. I read your blog, so I know your not a flake.

*accepts hugs and returns them*

[shefytbast]

Unfortunately, it's all too possible to think thinky thoughts and at the same time to be rather flaky in other matters. ^_^ I'm not always so, but sometimes my attention is just somewhere else. At least I'm dealing with it better than I have in the past--and I appreciate the vote of confidence!

I actually would really like to talk theology with you sometime (despite the fact that I've rarely managed to make a post on kotheology! :/ ). Maybe we should set up a chat date or PM thread or something.

[rana_narsilion]

You do have every right to post rants and your thoughts in your journal. However, everyone reading has every right to either agree or disagree with what you say. I have to admit reading your last post frustrated me because it almost felt as if you were blaming the rest of us for the fact that you didn't feel connected. But this post does clear some things up and I thank you for posting it. I understand the social awkwardness. Many people here may not believe it now but I was a total outcast in middle and high school. It took me most of college and being a member of the House to come out of my shell and actually reach out to people. It's still hard for me to ask for help but I think the people here have shown me time and time again that they care about me and will help. I care about you Aqheret and I hope that you are able to find the connections you seek.

[aqheretbastmut]

Thank you.