I've had too much time to think lately. And its never good thinking, always negative.
I pretty much gave up all hope with River Valley. They aren't going to call. And even if they do, I'm over trying to now convince mom of letting me switch. I only have to make it two more years.

We ended up not going to the beach today. Hi, disappointment.
But we did ( Read more... )

"but no worries whats done is done we can only move forward because tommrow is a new day"
The strength that girl has is unbelievable. After all she's been through, to have that positive of an outlook on life is just so amazing. I admire her so much.

I finished my sister's letter?
Well, at least at one:ten a.m. I think I did.
I'm sure the next time I ( Read more... )

I don't want to fall asleep tonight. I want to go somewhere. Like, to a place where nothing matters. Nothing holding me back, nothing bringing me down. Someplace calm.
.....Hm. I don't know.

BEACHHHH TOMORROW?!?!
Oh, I hope so!
Aaaaand dance tomorrow night.
Hey, maybe tomorrow will be a good day.

Saturday is another grad party. I'm so excited. Cortnie's ( Read more... )

This isn't supposed to happen.
No. No. No.

I look high from all the crying today. Awesome.

Ew. Driving.

Today has definitely been a crying day. Allll day.

And just as I finally stop crying, the awesome text: "I found the notebook"
Superrr.

I found an amazing dress today. It was perfect. Even mom loved it. 
......Then she decided to be bitchy. Thanks, mom.

Getting coffee Tuesday?
Going to Phoebe's today?

Who knowsss.

BUT I got ballet shoes today.

So there's a ton of stuff in my head....but I can't type it all. 
Too much.

Buuuut.
"He wants to rape you, erin."  "Yeah....he kinda did say that..."
Awesome night. We did the same things as always....but it just felt a lot different.... I love my sister, so so much.
And I still love her after forty five mintues of laughing/crying. :)

The birthday party ( Read more... )

Today was full of........suprises? I guess.
But not real suprises....more like, thoughtful gestures.

"I just want you to know that you really mean a lot to me, and I hope we stay friends forever!"
Best thing a boy has ever written in my yearbook.....ever.
He's definitely one of my best friends :)

The long conversation with an old friend was much needed ( Read more... )

Adventure sundayyyy. Sorta excited....sorta not.
But I'm not sure why I'm being so stupid about everything. He's the one who knows most about me, and understands me. And is always there whenever I need him.....So that makes him perfect, right?

I'm sorry for being a horrible.....friend? I don't know what to call myself when I'm around you... But I'm ( Read more... )

Ugh, I hate this, a lot.
:/

..........And I really don't know what else to say...

Sharpie is a pain in the ass to get off. I look like I have some sort of disease. Awesome, thanks kid.

I do the whole driving thing on the 16th.....at one. :/ hello, nervousness.

BUT mom found this ballet place. Were going thursday to check it out. Then if its all legit, signing up and shopping for stuff satuday.....or sunday.

My book for child ( Read more... )