I think I might have had the biggest fight of my life today over texts.
yeahhhh. great fun.

Hm. Aaaanyways. 
I miss my brother real bad :(
....and my sister. but I saw her like two hours ago. 
lame.

I guess its West Hills again next year.
"It won't be so bad once your friends start coming to the funeral home."
Too bad I said that to my mom and almost got ( Read more... )

"i'm done fighting with you. So, I'm sorry for everything i've ever done."
"dude i haven't even done anything, u don't think i hate fighting w/ u, u were my best friend and sister for 2 yrs."

exactly how it ended. 
nothing else was said after that.

But really. When someone apologizes, you don't say "ite" and then say it was accepting it. Thats not how ( Read more... )

"But fear of a word only increases the fear in the thing its self . So don't fall captive"
I love that kid so much.

I ate a glow stick last night. Like, I actually swallowed the damn liquid. Then proceeded to throw everything i ate that night up....including glow. that part was pretty cool though, not going to lie. I actually threw up glow! hahah
I'm ( Read more... )

Seriously.
I'm so done with everything right now.

"You should have not said anything until you got a definite answer, so its your fault not mine."
Thanks mom.

"I saw your sister today, you know, the one with the blonde hair"
Thanks slow kid who still thinks phoebe is my sister. Thanks for making things worse.

"Well weavie, since karen isn't here, i'm ( Read more... )

The whole letter started off with "you won't believe it."
Ha, at this point, I thought i could believe anything.
But I really couldn't believe it. It was....unexpected? A real reason to go though...not that I ever doubted her leaving....
I just hope things work out for her!! But i'll see her in August, I think :)

Anyways...
Its all over. Everything I ( Read more... )

I'm  afarid.
For tomorrow night. For next year. For everything.

But for tomorrow night. Showcase.
I feel like i'm horrible. I hear myself saying the lines, and I just feel like I suck majorly. Like, people hate having to sit through my scene, but they have to because they want to see the people after me. 
I don't know. Its weird.........
but I can't ( Read more... )

i let too many little things bother me.
like i feel sooo bad not going to Keli's stupid gymnastics thing.
and i'm reeeally not looking forward to showcase because i know phoebe won't be there. 
and i'm not sure why. its like, i know i'll live, but i don't feel like i will....

is it bad that i actually considered killing myself backstage when i kill ( Read more... )

Someone made a good point earlier....
You can't be perfect to everyone, someone can always find fault in you for something.

So, i'm sorry I wasn't the best friend you were looking for. I'm sorry things happened like this. And i'm sorry that I "gave up", but you know that i'm here when you want to make things right again.

I wrote her a letter today. I ( Read more... )

"we'll call you next week".
Maybe I didn't get in.
I don't want to go back to west hills next year.....
STRESSSSS FULLLL!
:/

hm. i got thrown across the choir room today while "dancing" with thomas. 
aaaand then after class i was running to catch up with my friend, and totally fell in the mud.
it sucked. today sucked.

and i'm not sure why i'm so ( Read more... )

We've "fallen outta touch" and were never going to "fall back into touch" so lets just forget it.
I'm not going to stay. I'm leaving. for good.

buuuut. my bffl came over today. suprise suprise, i know :)
but i love that kid. HEY CORTNIE, I LOVE YOU.
and she always seems to make things better. [although she's a homewrecker]

ohhh god. he has a truth box.
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