Saturday
11am
honey nut cheerios
2% milk
water
meds
12:00pm
chicken casserole with mixed veggies
mango nectar
2:00
granola bar
pretzels
water
6:00pm
tuna salad
green beans
yogurt
water
I am feeling slightly more upbeat today. I woke up groggy and emotionally uncomfortable yesterday and it never really went away, the discomfort and darkness. Let's hope this is a better day. Library closes at 5 today due to Spring Break. If I get there between 12 and 1, and stay until closing, that's a pretty decent work day. Then, back here to do more, hopefully. Okay. Let's do this.
Priority today:
Read and annotate at least 5 sources for bibliography
Goals for the rest of the weekend:
Draft an abstract
Read for Eng 688, write responses
Do some reading for 710
Next week:
priority is Atwood presentation since I've neglected it and it's due Tue, 20th
closet drama presentation due Mon, 19th
I had a dream last night that I was in 710 and royally fucked up an assignment. It was a terrible feeling. I am continually afraid my worst fears will be confirmed, that I am not good enough for this. That I'm nothing special. That I have no place in the field I've chosen. At the same time, I'm not as thrilled with this field as I was prior to grad school. But I'm going to get this degree. I am. I refuse to drop out.
I think I should have done something more related to social sciences or creative writing. But then again, I feel like I'd be shite as a creative writing major because I have such a hard time with invention. I can write my ass off, but coming up with new things? I always feel inadequate. Maybe it's because I've had little free time for the past few years of my life to devote to imagining, creating
Well, that was a digression.
Okay. Call library. Email financial aid. Go go go!!