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First, some excerpts from mine and other's writings.
Iam REALLY angry right now. I read Joe Solmenese's open letter from the Human Rights Campaign, and had a conversation with the president of my local GSA. I hate that proposition 8 did pass, and I'm moved by the call to action. I'm conflicted because I feel betrayed by the gay community right now. The conversation I had with the president of the GSA followed as such. "I heard you were dating [a questioning lesbian]. You think you'd have learned from the first time." There's only one person who could have told her enough details about that particular situation for her to be that confident in her assertion. I disclosed that information in confidence to that person, I feel like my trust has been betrayed or worse, misplaced in the first place. I know in my heart of heart's that isn't true, but I am steaming right now. I'm wondering why I bother supporting the queer community when some members of that community turn around and say things like that to me
I sincerely wish that I could answer the questions that people are asking.
I'm gonna try...
Who I am? Well it changes. As do most people's definitions of themselves. Life is an evolutionary process. I'm not the same as I was last week and next week I'll be a little different too. I don't like labels because they imply some form of permanence. Let me just clarify that whatever lifestyle I used to live, isn't the same as the one I live now. I claim my right to allow all aspects of myself to be in a constant state of flux. AKA: just becuase I used to "be" something, doesn't mean I have to always "be" that same something. :)
Where I am going? I'm headed wherever the Lord takes me. So far it looks like Social Work is my calling, with a bit of advocacy thrown into the mix. I'm doing an internship right now to become a women's advocate, I'm in school to become a social worker, and I volunteer at the Tacoma Rescue Mission once in a while. God seems to have given me a love for the people in this world that no one wants. I have a lot of patience and compassion so I'm going wherever I need to be in order to use my gifts to their fullest potential. Geographically...your guess is as good as mine!
Where did I come from? I came from NY by way of plane. I come from all of my days, all of my experiences, all of my past, just like you. The things in my past are not my definition however, whether they be good things or bad. Situations and circumstances do not define who I am. So when you ask where I came from, what do you really want to know?
Who do I love? I love my family. God. My friends. My cat. And that one other person in my life who understands me, accepts me, and can always make me laugh, my equal.
What do I believe in? Well that could take up a lot of space. But I believe that people have the right to be who they are and to be true to themselves without the fear of persecution. I belive in God. I believe what the Bible says. I believe I know who I am. I believe that I'm hungry, and so this entry is at it's end.
Many of you who know my religious beliefs and are reading this post probably know that neither that issue or the one regarding questioning one's sexuality has been one that I've been completely able to shut out of my mind. We've put in the hard work the last two weeks or so to construct the walls around ourselves and our relationship that effectively say "if you walk within their halls, there are certain rules or conduct and understanding you abide by, or we will kick you out." I've only had to throw three people out so far. I'm ruing not keeping Pai in my life as much as have, because I'd be turning to her right now for advice on how to navigate the religion issue in relationships, though I think I have plan that will work in the meantime.
In other news, my family has basically adopted a second son, a friend of mine who was kicked out of his house and I asked my parents if he could move in with us until we're able to find an apartment that we both can live with. I've got one in particular that has peaked my interest, so we'll see how that goes. The problem with that situation is that I'm frankly not sure if I want to be living with anyone right now. Living with someone else would require a merging, or at least coexistence, of the lifestyles of two people. Considering who the frontrunner for that other person position is, I'm not really sure that living situation would be a positive one, for any number of reasons, including me feeling like I have to play Dr. Phil way more often than I want to. Having a girlfriend with roommates can cause issues as well. I look to Mr. and Mrs. Kohn for some useful advice with that answer, though I'm not sure they even read this blog. I have the offer of a one bedroom apartment in the unused downstairs of the parent's of a friend of mine from church if I'd like it, and for quite an affordable price at that. We shall see what happens with that one.
I have a winter break to watch some TV, read some good books, spend some quality time with people(and one person in particular) I really care about, and generally retain my sanity for the work, challenges and things that just seem to happen that I'm sure will occur next quarter. I've got the inside track to being posted to Great Lakes, though when that decision actually takes place really depends on where both logan and her sister are in their lives, and making sure that they are both at a place where a move halfway across the country is reasonable for them. That I'm even considering an event that it probably 18 months or more away as a given kinda tells you how I feel about it and the people that I would be asking to come with me. This blog post has drug on for far to long at this point, and though I think there was more I wanted to say(only posting every month or so will do this), but I'll leave it for now, or until it occurs to me.
Iam REALLY angry right now. I read Joe Solmenese's open letter from the Human Rights Campaign, and had a conversation with the president of my local GSA. I hate that proposition 8 did pass, and I'm moved by the call to action. I'm conflicted because I feel betrayed by the gay community right now. The conversation I had with the president of the GSA followed as such. "I heard you were dating [a questioning lesbian]. You think you'd have learned from the first time." There's only one person who could have told her enough details about that particular situation for her to be that confident in her assertion. I disclosed that information in confidence to that person, I feel like my trust has been betrayed or worse, misplaced in the first place. I know in my heart of heart's that isn't true, but I am steaming right now. I'm wondering why I bother supporting the queer community when some members of that community turn around and say things like that to me
I sincerely wish that I could answer the questions that people are asking.
I'm gonna try...
Who I am? Well it changes. As do most people's definitions of themselves. Life is an evolutionary process. I'm not the same as I was last week and next week I'll be a little different too. I don't like labels because they imply some form of permanence. Let me just clarify that whatever lifestyle I used to live, isn't the same as the one I live now. I claim my right to allow all aspects of myself to be in a constant state of flux. AKA: just becuase I used to "be" something, doesn't mean I have to always "be" that same something. :)
Where I am going? I'm headed wherever the Lord takes me. So far it looks like Social Work is my calling, with a bit of advocacy thrown into the mix. I'm doing an internship right now to become a women's advocate, I'm in school to become a social worker, and I volunteer at the Tacoma Rescue Mission once in a while. God seems to have given me a love for the people in this world that no one wants. I have a lot of patience and compassion so I'm going wherever I need to be in order to use my gifts to their fullest potential. Geographically...your guess is as good as mine!
Where did I come from? I came from NY by way of plane. I come from all of my days, all of my experiences, all of my past, just like you. The things in my past are not my definition however, whether they be good things or bad. Situations and circumstances do not define who I am. So when you ask where I came from, what do you really want to know?
Who do I love? I love my family. God. My friends. My cat. And that one other person in my life who understands me, accepts me, and can always make me laugh, my equal.
What do I believe in? Well that could take up a lot of space. But I believe that people have the right to be who they are and to be true to themselves without the fear of persecution. I belive in God. I believe what the Bible says. I believe I know who I am. I believe that I'm hungry, and so this entry is at it's end.
Many of you who know my religious beliefs and are reading this post probably know that neither that issue or the one regarding questioning one's sexuality has been one that I've been completely able to shut out of my mind. We've put in the hard work the last two weeks or so to construct the walls around ourselves and our relationship that effectively say "if you walk within their halls, there are certain rules or conduct and understanding you abide by, or we will kick you out." I've only had to throw three people out so far. I'm ruing not keeping Pai in my life as much as have, because I'd be turning to her right now for advice on how to navigate the religion issue in relationships, though I think I have plan that will work in the meantime.
In other news, my family has basically adopted a second son, a friend of mine who was kicked out of his house and I asked my parents if he could move in with us until we're able to find an apartment that we both can live with. I've got one in particular that has peaked my interest, so we'll see how that goes. The problem with that situation is that I'm frankly not sure if I want to be living with anyone right now. Living with someone else would require a merging, or at least coexistence, of the lifestyles of two people. Considering who the frontrunner for that other person position is, I'm not really sure that living situation would be a positive one, for any number of reasons, including me feeling like I have to play Dr. Phil way more often than I want to. Having a girlfriend with roommates can cause issues as well. I look to Mr. and Mrs. Kohn for some useful advice with that answer, though I'm not sure they even read this blog. I have the offer of a one bedroom apartment in the unused downstairs of the parent's of a friend of mine from church if I'd like it, and for quite an affordable price at that. We shall see what happens with that one.
I have a winter break to watch some TV, read some good books, spend some quality time with people(and one person in particular) I really care about, and generally retain my sanity for the work, challenges and things that just seem to happen that I'm sure will occur next quarter. I've got the inside track to being posted to Great Lakes, though when that decision actually takes place really depends on where both logan and her sister are in their lives, and making sure that they are both at a place where a move halfway across the country is reasonable for them. That I'm even considering an event that it probably 18 months or more away as a given kinda tells you how I feel about it and the people that I would be asking to come with me. This blog post has drug on for far to long at this point, and though I think there was more I wanted to say(only posting every month or so will do this), but I'll leave it for now, or until it occurs to me.