Some random shit

[arallara]

Um, hey! *waves*

I was talking to someone recently about my relationship to fandom, and my issues around being social and trying to keep fandom a low-pressure space for myself. It was good to put together some of those feelings!

So, in the spirit of trying to keep fandom a low-pressure space for myself, some random things:

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[killabeez]

Heyyyy, I know you. :) Nice to hear from you! Just, you know, wanted to say that.

I sorta get what you're saying about being forty-something instead of thirty-something. For me, the big freedom is not caring so much about where I fit, you know? I'm starting to feel more okay with just doing whatever makes sense/makes me happy/is healthy for me at the time, whatever that entails.

If I had any good luck whatsoever, I'd gift it to you to increase your chances of winning the lottery. Sadly, my grandma told me when I was 15 or so that she had the worst luck in the world, and that it was pretty likely I'd inherited it, and damned if she wasn't right! I mean, don't get me wrong, in the big scheme of things, I'm VERY lucky. But when it comes to games of numerical odds and random chance, not so much.

[arallara]

Heeeyyyy, I'm so late but it was really nice to hear from you! :)

I'm starting to feel more okay with just doing whatever makes sense/makes me happy/is healthy for me at the time, whatever that entails.

I've totally been feeling that part of the process, too. That's definitely part of what is characterizing not feeling "young" exactly anymore, maybe. Because that kind of self-acceptance or just *chilling the fuck out about life* only comes with experience for most of us, I think.

Yeah, I am totally a sucker for the poor person's "easy way out" type fantasies. Mundane life choices required to maintain oneself economically in our society are just so...mundane. *sigh* But apparently I don't have the luck for it either!