Two Dreams or Two Nightmares?

[arasannayamu]

I tried going to sleep last night around 2am. Couldn't sleep. Tossed and turned for about an hour. Tried to will myself not to dream about Benjamin this time. Anything but Benjamin. But I didn't sleep at all because I spent so much time fretting over not dreaming about Ben. The guilt of my dreaming about someone who's practically dead while

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Re: Don't delay, act now, supplies are running out..

[arasannayamu]

It was just a dream. And in the dream I saw "Ben". The Ben I knew. The Ben that is dead now. You have to realize, I've never met you as Kat and so you're like a totally new person to me. I'm sorry I didn't see you as "Kat" in the dream because.. I don't know what you look like now.

I'm sorry if you don't like how I feel but I believe that Ben is dead. You believe that there was no Ben in the first place. I knew a Benji, and I felt confident around that Benji. Don't tell me there was no Ben or else you are being a jerk. And only guys can be jerks. :P

BTW, I'm sorry about mIRC today. Please forgive me for anything I said that offended you. :( I am not trying to be a bitch to you. I was having an attack and I needed to let lose. Thanks for listening. Not many people do. :)

[anonymous]

Ooo. Dreams. I've always been disappointed by dreams. Because mine always suck. LOL. Actually, I've had some really cool ones. I'm just disappointed 'cause mine aren't preminisionary (sp!?) or anything... I've had weird dreams. Dreams of chosing to stay with my mother, dreams of holding my dying and bloody father in my arms, dreams of saving the kids I babysit for from evil monsters, dreams of flying (lots of those! Coolness!) and so many others. I don't remember the preminisionary ones at the moment. All I remember is something was supposed to happen during the day but then it didn't so I was disappointed because my dream didn't come true. Anyway, parents are a fact of life! They're a pain in everyone's arse! LOL! Except mine, of course, for some weird reason. *blinks*