#1 arashi fanfic contest entries part 4
Hoi Hoi!!
Here are the entries of the first Fanfic contest.
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Entry #4
If Tears don't stop
Aiba closed his eyes for a second.
He could feel the sound of his heart beats in his ears and he felt like crying.
He was always the baka one. The one who was supposed to lighten up the mood! How did it come to this?
The kind sunlight caressed his face from the other side of the window panel but he did not dare to look outside. He wished the sky was gray, it would have been a much more fitting match for his mood!
He had been in that room for just a couple of days, but to him it was like he had been in there for years. He couldn’t stop thinking. No matter what, thoughts kept coming one after the other. Unpleasant thoughts, as dark as rainy clouds. “Just like a storm” he thought grimly.
Since he had been admitted in the hospital, none of his band mates had come to visit him. Not even Sho-chan.
Well, he couldn’t really blame them. He was sure they were angry at him.
Because he WAS the stupid one after all! They were supposed to debut, and they still had so many things to do! How could he get sick in a moment like that?
Tears started rolling down his cheeks. He didn’t want to cry, but he was feeling too mortified to even wipe them off.
“Maybe it’s for the best” he thought “Maybe this way, the new Arashi band will manage to make it big for real”.
It’s not like he wanted to become famous anyway. And without having to worry about him the others would have had it so much easier.
In that moment he made up his mind: first thing the next day he’d talk to Johnny-san, asking him to let him go…
That was what he was going to do..
No doubt about it..
The right thing for sure..
But then, why was he feeling so sad? The tears just wouldn’t stop at all. And it was starting to become hard controlling his voice as well.
-But I love Arashi! I still want to be a part of it!- he cried out, hugging his own knees.
-What are you talking about?-
Sho’s voice, together with the sound of the door being opened, made him turn around.
-Uwa! So uncool- said Nino looking smugly at Aiba tear-stained face.
-Yo! We came to visit!- Ohno was there too.
-Why are you crying? Does it hurt somewhere??- asked Jun, considerate as always.
Aiba couldn’t believe his own eyes. Maybe the lack of sleep was playing tricks on him.
He opened his mouth to say something, but words just didn’t want to come out so he simply stayed there, with his jaw hanging.
-We talked to the doctor- said Sho getting closer to the bed -He said you’ll be fine. But you have to eat more.-
-You know, you really look stupid with your mouth opened like that- pointed out Nino.
His words helped Aiba regaining a bit of awareness.
-What are you all doing here?- he asked, closing his mouth, but still a little shaken. He really didn’t thought they would come. Why were they here?
And then, for a moment, he felt like the bed under him was too steady. He wished he could disappear, right there. Getting sucked into the sheets.
The happiness he felt upon seeing his friends was suddenly replaced by something that was nothing short from terror. With what kind of face was he supposed to greet them?! After all the trouble he had caused to them, how could he still behave as if nothing had happened?! He felt his eyes getting watery again and the color being drained from his face.
-Are you fainting?- asked Jun taking Aiba from his shoulders and shaking him a little, as if it could help.
-N..no no- murmured the poor Aiba, abruptly taken away from his thoughts and still not ready to face his band mates.
-You don’t look too good- cut in Ohno, from one side of the room.
-Oi! You don’t say that to someone who’s in hospital- Sho and Jun scolded him softly
-But..he won’t smile!!- stressed Ohno, pouting.
Sho and Jun exchanged a look: to be honest they did agree with Ohno; but they didn’t want to upset Aiba too much, that’s why they didn’t say anything.
-Here!- said Sho to change the subject, showing the big colorful bag he was holding -We all brought you a little something to kill time while you’re here!- and started rummaging in the bag.
-Wait!- said Ohno -I want to go first!-
-Eeeh? But we agreed it didn’t matter!- protested Sho
-Then I want to be first too!- Jun added getting closer to the bag.
-Shall we do janken?- suggested Nino
-But I always lose at janken- Sho whined with a vexed look on his face.
-Then let me go first!- said Ohno
-Guys!- The voice was Aiba’s.
The four turned around looking at their friend on the bed, he was as white as the sheets and trembling a little.
-I..I just want to say that I really had a lot of fun with you and…and..-
-You know, you were saying this also when we came in..what the hell are you talking about?- Sho’s voice was serious and a bit harsh. He was worried.
Aiba looked at him. Sho would have been the hardest one to leave.
-I mean, I was really happy to have been chosen to be Arashi, and I’ll never forget you guys..-
-That’s why we are asking you what you’re talking about!- Jun was also getting a little angry, but it was Nino who intervened this time.
-Could it be- he said while getting closer to Aiba’s bed -That you think you have to leave the group?-
The eyes of the other three turned to Nino while they all cried out at the same time -Why?!-
-Because Aiba-chan is an idiot- said Nino simply -I was afraid it’d come to something like this..-
They all rushed to Aiba’s bed.
-Why would you think something like that?- asked Sho, looking really shocked.
-Eh? Well, I caused trouble for all of you..- said Aiba with broken voice. Looking at Sho was getting harder.
-See? I told you he was an idiot!- confirmed Nino with a sight.
-You really are an idiot!- agreed Jun.
-What kind of trouble do you think you’re causing?!- Sho was still trying to figure it out. He didn’t even want to think about what it’d have happened if Aiba was to leave them.
-Because we have the..the debut and a lot of things but..but I’m here so..my work..you have to work for me too..-
Aiba was looking scared at his friends’ faces. They were all watching him in disbelieve.
-We know you were stupid, but we never thought you were THAT stupid- said Jun.
-Can we please drop the “stupid” part?- stressed Aiba turning back to his usual self for a second.
-But you ARE stupid!- Sho was really angry now -Do you have any idea of how we felt seeing you falling down like that? We were scared out of our minds. I thought my heart was going to stop before you could hit the ground!!-
Aiba’s eyes were wide open listening to Sho’s talk.
-Do you know why we waited for two days before coming?- asked Jun
-It’s..because you were angry?- suggested Aiba
Nino shook his head with a grin and glanced sideways to Ohno with a “I told you so” kind of look.
-Angry? Yes!- snapped Sho -But with ourselves! For being unable to help you!! Cause we let you overwork yourself and didn’t notice you were feeling unwell, so you..you hurt yourself..- Sho didn’t finish the sentence and started looking at his own shoes.
Aiba let his mouth drop open again.
Was it possible that he misunderstood?? He tried to flip through his memories again. The moment his legs gave way and started falling..Ah! They were all running to him. He could remember Sho’s eyes, just before everything went black around him. They were so scared. Up until now he thought he had just imagined them, maybe dreamt them, but now..
-Aiba- Nino got his attention again -No matter how many times you’ll fall, how many times you’ll be hospitalized or how many times you’ll say that you want to leave Arashi. We won’t let you go.-
Aiba looked at the boys around his bed, they were all nodding firmly at the same time.
-Cause Aiba-chan is always smiling, tears don’t suit you!- pointed out Jun forcing himself to smile.
Ohno wasn’t talking, but his silence was worth more than many words. Everything was showing on his face.
-When you laugh, we all laugh. When you cry, we all cry. That’s what Arashi is. So please Aiba-chan, be happy!- Sho was trying his best to keep his voice steady, but with little success -Arashi is made by five people! If one of us is missing, it’s not Arashi anymore! How can we debut then!- tears started falling while he was speaking, and seeing it Aiba could not control himself anymore.
Hiding his face on his knees he started crying as well.
-I’m so sorry!!!- he almost screamed -You guys are the best!! I’m so glad I’m in Arashi!!! I love you guys!!! Let’s make Arashi become the top!!!!-
And saying that he started hugging them, one after the other, with trembling arms.
-Stop it!! You’re getting snot all over me!- frowned Nino when his turn came, but Aiba didn’t listen. Laughing and crying at the same time he kept hugging them.
-You’re such a mess!- Jun said with a smile while drying his own cheeks from tears, both Aiba’s and his own.
The last one was Sho. Aiba had purposely left him for last.
The hug was long and they both felt like they didn’t want to let go.
-If you even think about leaving me and Arashi again I won’t forgive you!- Sho murmured in Aiba’s ear.
The other one hugged him even tighter and nodded softly, lost in the sweet scent of his skin. Then, he glanced over Sho’s shoulder, outside the window, and suddenly he felt that, compared to the inside of that room, the Hawaiian sun was not so bright after all.