Exibit A: Week One: Am I Crazy?

[aravfiel]

I’m a barista at Starbucks, part time, when I’m not working at the spa. A coffee slinger, one of the green siren barbies with the instant smile and the chipper words to send the cups of caffeine out the door (or window). It’s not so bad, really. There are difficulties with under staffing, difficulties with balancing management, difficulties with

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[myrna_bird]

Brava! You write non fiction well!

[aravfiel]

Awww, thank you~ ^_^

[aravfiel]

Belated comment, go!

I fully agree. Having lived so damaged by the rest of the world before finding out how to shed all that to really find myself makes it even more important to me to live that way. And better sleep is a side effect I've noticed myself. :)

[cheshire23]

It's so frustrating, isn't it? This whole idea that you must be crazy if you're not mean-spirited.

[aravfiel]

It is. But for me it's more sad than frustrating, because I lived cynically and jaded because of how damaged I let myself be by the world for so long, and you never know how many people are just like that, in their own way.

[sweeny_todd]

Is that really what this world has turned to? People who are so bitter, in so much pain and so unhappy at the world that they give in to the pattern of things?
I often wonder something similar.

[aravfiel]

It's not something I talk about very often, at least not in places where I'm face to face with people, because it's a sensitive topic. It's one of the beauties of online communities such as this: there's just enough distance that people can talk about things like this without feeling like the topics will become social atom bombs, at least not as much. But still, I'm glad that there are people who identify with that. Sometimes I wondered if I was just ignorant or cruel, but somehow, I doubt it.

[halfshellvenus]

I don't understand how people can be aware of someone's misery, and not only fail to offer a real human response but are critical of those who do.

Your boss needed comfort, not judgment, and I'm glad you were able to see that so clearly!

[aravfiel]

You and I both. I'm a healer by nature and trade, no matter what my childhood did to me that I had to work myself out of. I can't just watch someone be in that kind of pain and not feel for them. I can connect a to b to c to understand why others do, but only barely. Even when I was a bitter angry bitch, it only made me more angry and bitter and jaded if I ever treated someone like that. (Of course, I'm treated with the other end of the spectrum and now have to constantly work to keep my bleeding heart under control enough to not try and do more than I can for people and therefore damage myself, but...I think I'd prefer that, really.)

Thank you. :) I am as well. I'm not innocent in my frustration of him, but there's a point.