Depression
So without any clinical evaluation (because I can't afford such things anymore) I think I may have developed a case of depression this summer. I have been trying to ignore it and be happy. Um, largely because this seems to be the fastest, cheapest method of dealing with depression. It seems to work moderately well. Of course there are some symptoms that this method does not agree with. For those I try to remember the positive. Of course the difficulty comes in believing it. But I am trying.
Some of you may have already noticed it. Some of you may be able to pinpoint a couple of the triggers even. (Hopefully not too many of you. I feel bad enough writing about such a mood-killing subject.)
It is not severe. There is nothing to worry about. It is mild enough that my family hasn't noticed it (though they are sort of preoccupied, so I doubt that they would notice even if it were severe).
I wouldn't even mention it, save that some people have expressed that I actually update more. Specifically about what is going on in my life and not just quizes, etc. That's it.
Edit for myself so I don't forget: I feel like I sleep all day. That's hypersomnia. I have no appetite. If my stomach didn't cramp I probably wouldn't eat. I am saddened to the point of tears over the most absurd things. I am not being ignored, it's just that the world does not revolve around me. People do not mean to hurt my feelings. They just don't know that they do. And they never will if I don't tell them. Then again, the problem is mine, so why should I ask someone to change for me. Clearly my feelings are being hurt not because of another's actions or lack thereof but because that is the reaction I choose to have. Therefore, the problem is me. The problem is me.