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sometimes I just don't know what to do.
I hate that I care - so much - and the feeling of hopelessness feels like bile.
And yet - I don't care enough. Why else would I run away - leave people that I care about, that I love, alone together to fight their problems?
Why else be so careless at times - that I feel like both a jerk and a coward?
Seems like we have weathered another storm, but I don't know how broken it eally is, and that thought scares me.
I have been told just know that I am strong - I just snorted. Sometimes even going numb is seen as a sign of strenght.
I hate that I care - so much - and the feeling of hopelessness feels like bile.
And yet - I don't care enough. Why else would I run away - leave people that I care about, that I love, alone together to fight their problems?
Why else be so careless at times - that I feel like both a jerk and a coward?
Seems like we have weathered another storm, but I don't know how broken it eally is, and that thought scares me.
I have been told just know that I am strong - I just snorted. Sometimes even going numb is seen as a sign of strenght.