I have a desire

[arcadian72]

to better myself. It's tough, because the things I am going after are deep seated, long term issues like jealousy and a superiority complex. I come by them honestly, I think, but I don't want them anymore. I want to be more self-positive. As such, I am trying to respond to my personal jealousy issues with inward reflection of the blessings in my

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[kass_rants]

You can do this. Personally I find that my jealousy and superiority complex go hand in hand. Jealousy is so crippling. You really don't need it in your life. When I feel like that, I try to analyze exactly what I'm jealous of. Once it was a friend's big beautiful house. So I told myself a story about her big not-so-beautiful mortgage and convinced myself that I didn't want what the house "cost" in other areas, like travel. Another time I was jealous because a friend married a man with a great job who paid all the bills by himself so she didn't have to work. But he wanted children, and I was never going to have anyone's children, so I wasn't willing to make that sacrifice for security. Everyone's "perfect life" comes with compromises. Eventually you realize that you have nothing to be jealous of. =)

Paperwork --ugh. Need to do mine.