i love you
to you who calls himself god,
people said you can and will make everything right.
make this all right then.
now.
please.
stop.
this.
now.
save my soul.
save my class.
you said we could find rest in you.
if we ever decided to return.
i tried.
now where are you.
you fucking idiot.
where?
are you even there?
i love them.
i do.
please do not take it all away.
those smiles
this love
this dream
this wish
this class
my dream
my love
my hopes
my love
my
love
love
love
love
do you hear me?
do you see me?
my tears?
my tears?
my anguish?
my pain?
do you?
do you exist?
are you there?
do you hear me?
anyhow, i'd manage it right?
nothing i can't take right?
hey. answer me.
idiot.
you idiot of a god.
and you dare to call yourself god.
you tear at our hearts and our very essence
you tore us apart.
you are tearing us apart.
challenges?
teach me.
tell me.
teach a man to fish, eh?
or to self destruct?
teach me. come on.
i'm waiting.
if you're there, make it soon.
save us. save us now.
save us.
i love. them all. no exceptions.
sinners, hypocrites, righteous ones,
self righteous ones, idiots, naive ones. i love them.
to the bits.
make it stop.
stop.
stop.
stop.
stop.
make
it stop.
if you don't then
i
would
make
it
stop.
even if it'd mean
i'd die.
even if it'd mean
they'd hate me.
i want them
to.
i want them to hate me.
i want them to hate me.
not them
not each other.
it's good seeing everything going well from afar.
it was good
back then
back when
i wanted you
to guide me
believing in my principles
living it and
making it happen
you were not there
but still
my dearest
she
told me that maybe i do not allow you to enter my heart and my life
now. i gave you my heart
my soul
i didn't tell anyone about it
i didn't brag about it.
no body knew
only me. nobody. nobody knew.
i wanted you to come.
i wanted you to come
but you were not there.
and then this
this
this
i'll make it happen
not like before
idiot
you're not worthy to be called a god
iamwhoam
iamanidiot
idiot.