A couple small poetic type pieces......
I cant believe im posting this to my journal, but i sat down and tried to write some cookleta fics i NEED to be writing, but all that came out were these two little pieces of work...It all just flowed out, its been on my mind lately, and I can't get this one person their for out of my mind...
Okay, enjoy!
***The First Time***
If you loved me once, just this once, for the first time ever in my entire life, I would be here with you, smiling like ive never before, and only then, would i be complete, with you by my side, i could climb mountains, walk for miles, if only it meant to hold you just this once, for just one tiny sliver of eternity, you would be here, happily resting in the warm embrace of my loving arms, and you'd know, as i know, that this feeling we have, its real. Forever it has been and forever it will be, love. so many adjectives could be used to describe these feeling we have deep within, but only one i can think of, and thats beautiful, which is how you look tonight, as we sit together under the twinkling stars and the shimmering moonlight, your smile so much brighter to me than all the lights in the sky, and in that smile, i feel at home because i know it is and always will be, shelter, protection, love, a home.
***I Don't Want You, But I Do***
I dont want your arms around me, for the feeling is something I long for through the cold, lonely nights that I lay here, wishing you were here.
I dont want your stunning eyes staring back at me when I see you in class, because it is those very eyes I see in my most cherished dreams, and also in my most hated nightmares.
I dont want your lips against mine, for it is those I very lips I cannot get out of my mind.
I dont want these things, things i have never wanted more, for one sole reason that never ceases to haunt me. If i let you and all these things in, I'll know that pain i'll feel when you say goodbye, for every dawn is followed by night, every hello followed bye goodbye.
I know how much i want these things, but I can't just take what i want, for the price is too much. Though now that I think back, I now know that i'll never get what i want unless i take it, reach for it, strive for it.
But Damn, my heart wont settle down, its does flips that should earn it an olympic gold medal every time i see you, my stomach churns to the point i might be sick with love when you brush past me, and every inch of my body is like a live wire, burning strongly through the lonely, miserable night where you arent beside me.
I tell myself i dont want this, i wont fall under your beautiful gaze, which reminds me of the moonlight that fills my bedroom, beautiful and glistening, giving me enough light to find my way home, back to you. because it is this same beautiful moonlight that leads me back to you, the one place i didnt want to be, and the one place i wanted to be most.
I can't do this, I want off this ride, there are too many turns, too many ups, too many downs, too many loops that I suddenly cant stand it. But it is the same ride that makes me want to get back on the very next day, when you offer to ride along with me.
I begin to realize, though i dont know how i do, that i'm smiling in my sleep. You are everywhere, i see you in unfamiliar faces, i see you in places i never expected to see you, and you are everything, the reason for this small bit of writing that has been eating at me, begging to be let out.
I need to run, run far away, so i can have at least a moment to breath. Though you arent suffocating me, no, far from it, you are giving me the air that i need to keep moving everyday, for if it werent for you, i wouldnt be standing where i am now. But even when i run, i still see you everywhere, so i run farther, push you further away, like a scared child running from a crowd of unfamiliar faces, even when you are in every one of those foreign faces.
Wait...I surrender.
Please dont hurt me...i wont ever hurt you...
Please dont break me...i'll never break you...
Thats it...
I'm giving up...falling, free falling through the clouds, though i'm not afraid of what is waiting at the bottom.
For I know you will catch me.
Okay, so i wrote these in like five minutes, so they arent very good, but these things have been lingering on my mind lately, and i needed to express them, so what better way than through writing!
Okay, enjoy!
***The First Time***
If you loved me once, just this once, for the first time ever in my entire life, I would be here with you, smiling like ive never before, and only then, would i be complete, with you by my side, i could climb mountains, walk for miles, if only it meant to hold you just this once, for just one tiny sliver of eternity, you would be here, happily resting in the warm embrace of my loving arms, and you'd know, as i know, that this feeling we have, its real. Forever it has been and forever it will be, love. so many adjectives could be used to describe these feeling we have deep within, but only one i can think of, and thats beautiful, which is how you look tonight, as we sit together under the twinkling stars and the shimmering moonlight, your smile so much brighter to me than all the lights in the sky, and in that smile, i feel at home because i know it is and always will be, shelter, protection, love, a home.
***I Don't Want You, But I Do***
I dont want your arms around me, for the feeling is something I long for through the cold, lonely nights that I lay here, wishing you were here.
I dont want your stunning eyes staring back at me when I see you in class, because it is those very eyes I see in my most cherished dreams, and also in my most hated nightmares.
I dont want your lips against mine, for it is those I very lips I cannot get out of my mind.
I dont want these things, things i have never wanted more, for one sole reason that never ceases to haunt me. If i let you and all these things in, I'll know that pain i'll feel when you say goodbye, for every dawn is followed by night, every hello followed bye goodbye.
I know how much i want these things, but I can't just take what i want, for the price is too much. Though now that I think back, I now know that i'll never get what i want unless i take it, reach for it, strive for it.
But Damn, my heart wont settle down, its does flips that should earn it an olympic gold medal every time i see you, my stomach churns to the point i might be sick with love when you brush past me, and every inch of my body is like a live wire, burning strongly through the lonely, miserable night where you arent beside me.
I tell myself i dont want this, i wont fall under your beautiful gaze, which reminds me of the moonlight that fills my bedroom, beautiful and glistening, giving me enough light to find my way home, back to you. because it is this same beautiful moonlight that leads me back to you, the one place i didnt want to be, and the one place i wanted to be most.
I can't do this, I want off this ride, there are too many turns, too many ups, too many downs, too many loops that I suddenly cant stand it. But it is the same ride that makes me want to get back on the very next day, when you offer to ride along with me.
I begin to realize, though i dont know how i do, that i'm smiling in my sleep. You are everywhere, i see you in unfamiliar faces, i see you in places i never expected to see you, and you are everything, the reason for this small bit of writing that has been eating at me, begging to be let out.
I need to run, run far away, so i can have at least a moment to breath. Though you arent suffocating me, no, far from it, you are giving me the air that i need to keep moving everyday, for if it werent for you, i wouldnt be standing where i am now. But even when i run, i still see you everywhere, so i run farther, push you further away, like a scared child running from a crowd of unfamiliar faces, even when you are in every one of those foreign faces.
Wait...I surrender.
Please dont hurt me...i wont ever hurt you...
Please dont break me...i'll never break you...
Thats it...
I'm giving up...falling, free falling through the clouds, though i'm not afraid of what is waiting at the bottom.
For I know you will catch me.
Okay, so i wrote these in like five minutes, so they arent very good, but these things have been lingering on my mind lately, and i needed to express them, so what better way than through writing!