Hrm... contemplation of life

[archirat]

I realized this afternoon after I finally got sleep that my heart kinda went into hiding. When this happens... boys get attached, and they get hurt. I don't do it maliciously or out of any spite, I just don't feel the same way about them. I love them dearly as friends, but it's always during this time that the most guys come up to me and want to

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[tokyoduchess]

You're strong, I believe in you. This is part of the cycle of letting go. You're not completely over it (you can't be this quickly) but you're getting there. I just hope you and Scott can still be friends and it won't make the hanging out awkward. I love you and I'm glad you're feeling a little better. ♥

I'm sad because it hasn't snowed at all since I got home. :(

Hmm...

[archirat]

Actually hun, realizing that I did the same thing and my feelings on it have made me happy, I never "get over it" or "let go" I still have an interest in people but my feelings on the situation have changed totally.

Oh, I still love him, but it's all different now. I intellectually understood what was going on, but now I understand it emotionally and that is the key when you have empathy. Now I can hang out with him without fear of hiding myself or anything of that nature.

The idea behind my healing is that he *really* didn't want what happened to happen. But his feelings were not the same and he cannot help it. It's like what you feel for Steve, but Scott was unable to blow me off and I just wouldn't accept it...but now I have.

I already went through anger, depression, denial, and the other one...I can't remember the exact name for it... but that only leaves acceptance.

Re: Hmm...

[tokyoduchess]

What can I say, you are right. ♥