hm. it really is amazing how happy i am. there's no stress about homework or impressing people...there's no real issue with people disliking me at this new school. i feel great ( Read more... )

hm.....when i make a commitment to myself ( a very good feeling on monday morning thank you general conference) i am always tempted to break it ( Read more... )

first off, i feel smexilant...i am in a dress that i haven't worn in about two years....maybe more...and it still fits like fine silk! yay, go me and my "one-ass" God, i am going to miss Mauro and Bridget. they made fun of me, and crap happened every now and then....but god it was fun. well there will be christmas....how am i going to keep my ( Read more... )

Okay, this will be a very long rant. now, in this rant it may appear i hate my job, i do not, i hate the circumstances that lead to my having so many hours ( Read more... )

i feel as if i'm losing touch. i want to crawl into a hole and dissapear forever....thank god i have my job, or else i would feel out of place everywhere. i don't fit in at annandale. i don't fit in at Landmark. i don't fit in at home either.....for reasons i really don't want to explain ( Read more... )

i just had a great conversation with someone i've never seen. fucked up right? oh well ( Read more... )

wow, just.....wow....i am really screwed up ain't i. oh, i'm looking at pictures of garet's prom....it makes me feel pretty, even though i'm not. (and those who would disagree with me, have you SEEN me freaked out and stressed like this?)

i am afraid of answering my phone or my door for fear that he'll be out there, he screwed up my life enough as it is, why not leave well enough alone?

so well today is going great for me....despite the fact i wasn't able to go to art to further my experiments with terpentine and oil *sigh* oh well...we can't have everything good in this world. BUT i did get to sleep.....a very long time adn then i spent the rest of my time reading........ah it feels so god to be able to finishes books in a day ( Read more... )

hello, i am now OFFICIALLY 17. go me.
heehee, i love you Jillian. i'm sure i'll grow into the extra hump!
dinner with Ruth? i think so......