I realize that one of my biggest fears is change...I fear the unknown, what's to come, fearing losing things beofre their time, before I say it's time to let them go. I've lost so much in my life before I've been ready to really let them go...but I think I realize that I have no chioice but to let these things go...even when I fear to. I have to ( Read more... )

Queesnryche, the Lady Wore Black ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 33% Stability |||| 20% Orderliness |||||||||| 36% Altruism |||||||||||||||| 70% Interdependence || 10% Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63% Mystical |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Artistic || 10% Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Hedonism |||||| 30% Materialism ||| ( Read more... )

currently I'm pondering if I should be locking the following entries, and I've decided that I will lock selective one, and I'll figure out a way later to allow only select people to access them. But in the intrum, I guess I'll stay will my thoughts, mainly on my emotional state, as not actually there as it currently is ( Read more... )

A Perfect Circle - Passive Lyrics ( Read more... )

This Is How a Heart Breaks - Rob Thomas ( Read more... )

What a weekend. What a Week. Brittany goes home today, Mike and Alan are taking her back while I'm at work ( Read more... )

I decided to update again today...it's not really that I have anything to say other than I'm kinda dissapointed in life in general. I was really looking forward to doing a few things with the left over cash that I had, but it seems that I'm not going to. Again, I've been promised jewlery, and I took a look at my favorite website, chose something ( Read more... )

I've had a really really bad day today....what was supposed to be my day off turned in to another day of stress and depression as Michael and I argued severely this morning. So now I've been in a funk all day, even going as far as to explore avenues of ending my life once we no longer have Mike's daughter here with us. Game felt forced and Mike ( Read more... )

Wow, what an interesting weekend ( Read more... )