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areaiofthemoon

Stuff

Feb 20, 2006 21:48

At Billys wake I put his Sgt. Monkeywrench monkey into his arms before they closed his casket. Gods I wanted to fall to the floor and cry my eyes out...So yesterday I went to Lake Side Mall and made a new Monkey, Sgt. Monkeywrench II. Its just like the first one but its dressed in clothing that Billy would have worn at home, and he even has ( Read more... )

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himmerethwen February 20 2006, 22:52:30 UTC

Awww...i'm sorry that you're still in pain sweetie...

the monkey's sound adorable, though...you have one, and Billy has one.

And I'm sure that Billy would be happy to know that the rest of you and Michelle's college is paid off...he would be happy to know that you are going to get an awesome education...think of it as his last present to you...one that will last a lifetime...then, do something with it to honor him...

I hope that tomorrow is sunny for you, love. I miss you and I wish I could give you hugehugehuge hugs. I love you!!!

different Jennifers areaiofthemoon February 21 2006, 07:21:58 UTC

I don't think I will be the same Jennifer as I was before. Im going to be a little bit sadder and a little quick to anger until I deal with all the pain and anger of Billys death. Until the Army tells us how he died with out trying to cover up anything.
Thanks for the huggs.

*huggles*

Re: different Jennifers himmerethwen February 21 2006, 11:09:39 UTC

it's understandable that you feel different now...i don't think that there is any other way around that...but it's important to try to be happy in your life...i'm sure that billy wouldn't want you to be sad and angry for the rest of your days. he loved you, and he wants to see you happy...just like me!!! i love you, honey...MUAH!!!

*HUGGLESANDLOVE!!!*

Don't be angry Jenny... joe_chapman_04 February 27 2006, 07:02:07 UTC

Hey! Found your LJ! Ok. Anyways, I just want to put in my two cents. I was so happy to get to spend time with ya'll last week and for the wake & funeral. It was a time of mourning, but also of celebration. We mourn the loss of a loved one, but should also celebrate his life and how he lived. God knows that he and I were more than cousins, he and I had more of a brotherly love than anything else. When I got the news of his death, I collapsed to the floor and started crying my eyes out. I couldn't believe it. He'd been talking to me via email about how he was going to be visiting me and my fiance Michelle after he got back and had gotten a truck with the money he was going to get from his time in the army. I really wish I could've seen him one last time before he passed, but it was his time. I know that your faith and beliefs had been shaken a long time ago, and that you have a different religion, but the way I see it, Billy is in a much better place now. He's up there with Granddaddy and is looking down upon us, the same ( ... )