should I stay or go?

[aredspree]

Matt has this crazy affect on me.... one moment I know that Matt and I should not see each other anymore because we are just torturing ourselves by the inevitable distance and Matt's demanding job which prevents him from being the type of boyfriend I want and deserve.. But at the same time it is TORTURE to know that Matt is back at the coast and I

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[notesandchords]

Hey Alyssa,

I got your message. Thanks for the words. We've had a few changes to our marriage date (re: supreme court ruling), but we're still moving forward.

What ever happened to your job interview at SLO County? Did they ever get back to you?

[aredspree]

I did hear back, I am on an eligibility list for hire (i think I am number 15 or so) but the job at SLO wasn't even for a MSW position, so it wouldn't satisfy CalSwec, so I have to apply elsewhere in the meantime.

I love reading your posts, send my love to Jason. Best wishes!

[misanthrope42]

It's been a long time since I've gone on LJ, and it's also been a long time since I talked to you at all, but if you're interested in my $0.02, here it is

unexpected...

[aredspree]

Considering I haven't heard from you at all in a long while, its kinda weird to suddenly hear from you on my LJ, and its kinda comical that you are giving me relationship advice, But with weirdness and initial shock aside, I do appreciate you reaching out and giving your $ .02.

Matt isn't the right one for me, at least not the way he lives his life. I am greedy and selfish with someones time, and Matt can't make me the priority in his life that I want. I could compromise, but its just going to leave me unsatisfied and bitter, because I will want more than Matt can give. I will not settle for something less than everything when it comes to a relationship.

Does that make me selfish? Yes, but i deserve better.

Re: unexpected...

[misanthrope42]

If that's the case, then you already know what you've gotta do.

And if it's that comical, then I won't volunteer any more advice.