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[areyouevolving]

So I told my boss the whole tale...she had two questions, one of which I kinda wanted to pose here to the people that know what's going on. Feel free to comment. I'll put up more on what we talked about in a day or so...it did help and she was very supportive. Couldn't tell if she was surprised or not, but I'm trying not to care about that

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[shoesaremycrack]

since we're in loosely similar situations, my two cents:

there's a dual answer. one part would opt for, at the very least, an ADMISSION of how he treated you in the past and continues to treat you now. an admission that he's got issues with his sexuality and it was wrong of him to blame you, an acknowledgement that he cared/still cares about you in a way that was more than friendship. the other part would want some kind of closure and an apology. and maybe a small sliver would have a glimmer of hope that something might come out of it, a reconnection of sorts.

i could be way off, but it's just my guess.

[areyouevolving]

Guilty on all counts, I think.

I'm so scared that the part of me that wants a glimmer of hope is bigger then what I'm admitting. I actually ended up calling him back...left him a message like I said I would. That was about a week and a half ago and I haven't heard anything. The few people in my life that know about this whole situation think he's waiting for me to call him again, as he probably wasn't expecting me to be short on the phone when he called.

I know to make this happen, I'll have to call again...just when I think about doing it, I freeze up.