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[argyle_sockso_o]

They told us that when we got home, we would feel euphoria, but that it wouldn't last. I feel like the not lasting bit has started happening in the last half hour

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[hyungwhore]

You know, in times like this, it might help to try to talk to someone instead of posting an LJ and just leaving it at that. I'm no trying to sound like I'm forcing my opinion on you, but do LJ entries ever really help? Maybe talking about it in real time, while it's in the height of the emotion, would help work through whatever it is that's causing it. Honestly, it doesn't seem that you know that the catalyst to all of this is, so maybe some reflection is needed?

I dunno. Just a thought on the matter. Internalizing never helps and all that psychobabble.

[sonador_hermosa]

I have to say that seeing a therapist, just a cognitive behavioral therapist, has been really awesome in helping to compartmentalize the actions of others (like Mom's being passive-aggressive, which also has really bothered me a lot in the past too), and to not assign the actions and reactions of others to myself and my person. I highly recommend it. It's good to have someone to vent to, and they help you put it in perspective better than even friends can do sometimes (not saying friends can't be valuable, though, because they can be). Being mentally unstable isn't anything to be ashamed of, either. I think you're awesome. Mom's inability to express her dissapointment in others by communicating is her issue, not anyone else's. Maybe one day she'll learn that, I can only hope. In the mean time, you're an adult, and so am I (well, kinda, lol), and we are the ones who have to live with ourselves in the long run. Don't be too approval-oriented, it will only hurt you. I love you! <3 I hope this has made sense...I'm here for you,

[sonador_hermosa]

to add, she might have been mad because you didn't call to let her know where you were. Not that you're obligated to because you're an adult, but she was like that with me when I was of age but still living at home. She is just like that, very protective. The passive-aggressive thing isn't very endearing a trait of hers, and I have to re-emphasize that it's her issue, not yours. You're not bad. You're a good kid. Don't let it get to you too much. I love you!