And day one of my holiday is off to a great start

[ariadne83]

It only took my mother 14 hours to drive me to incandescent rage. It's not quite a record - I'm pretty sure she's managed it in just two hours before - but still.

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[sheafrotherdon]

I'm sorry, my dear! To have everything invalidated that way - no wonder you felt such rage. Rage was a totally appropriate response. I hope today is a better day ♥

[ariadne83]

Thanks. I managed to get through yesterday without whiskey after all, so I'm weirdly proud.

I think she does it to make herself feel better. If she shifts the blame for the abuse, or minimises it, she doesn't have to face the truth about her role in it.

ETA:

The absolute worst part is that looking back on it, the brother she always makes excuses for? And sad faces that we don't get along with him? Yeah, I'm pretty sure he was grooming me. If he hadn't moved out when I was 8 (and he was 18) I think things would've gotten even worse.

[sheafrotherdon]

Ugh, I am so sorry. And yes, I think you're right about your mom. Denial is such a powerful thing, and injures everyone close by. I'm so proud of you for surviving all this! ♥

[ariadne83]

Thanks! I wouldn't have come this far without your honesty about what you went through. It made a lot of things clearer to me about my own history