yes, Im always thinking about what my family would think about stuff like that...i dont think theyll ever understand. and i dont know how i could explain either!!
i love childhood memories so much! everything was so perfect then ... i lived in my own little world and what others thought never mattered. I look back at it now and I already had a lot of behaviours that could probably predict what I was going to be now. But back then it meant nothing. I wish I could go back to certain moments with all the knowledge I have about my life now, and change certain details, just little things that were actually turning points in my life.
It's sad when you can look back on things and see where they went wrong. If only we weren't too young and innocent to notice at the time, or for someone else to notice.
Maybe it will all work out for the best. Maybe we'll end up in some certain situations that we would never end up if it weren't for going through what we're going through. That's how I like to think of it. Like, if I weren't eating disordered I wouldn't be here at uni now. And if I weren't here at uni I wouldn't have gone to Spain this summer. And if I hadn't gone to Spain this summer I wouldn't be planning to go back there again. And then who knows what will come from going back there.
But yes, I hope we end up in good places, not in spite of all of this, but because of all this. If we learn from it, then we're doing something right.
Yes, those are lovely photos! Thanks for the link x
Eric...i want someone too :( you know, at least you had had girlfriends...i never had anyone. i just dont get why i never like the guys who like me... everytime i have like a chance theres something holding me back...i dont know if im scared or something like that. i dont know. but im not going to be with someone just because they like me and im lonely....so i guess ill just have to wait some more ;P
You'll find someone soon, sweetie. I know you probably hear this all the time but it's true, you're an incredible guy and someone will see that soon. There's no reason why someone like you should be alone! This is just...a phase I guess. ♥
There are so many things I would like to say to you... I just don't know where to begin
1. I keep having dreams about Borys, where two of us are so happy together. It hurts so much to wake up. 2. I get up in the morning just to see him on the bus. That's like totally pathetic. 3. I want to meet someone who would be only mine...someone to call my own
Lyrics I listen to Cool Kids Of Death a lot, they just happen to have the most amazing lyrics ever. All girls are bad All are blue and bad When they feel sick They think how good love would feel (...) I stopped casting shadow today It's gonna be so much much worse tomorrow.
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Light inside us has burnt out Generation nothing, generation no
My two favourite songs ever I don't belive that anybody feels the way I do About you now (...) There are many things that I'd like to say to you But I don't know how I say maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you're my wonderwall Wonderwall- Oasis ***
You can tell by the way, she walks that she's my girl
( ... )
Story #1 I remember that when I was like 8 or 9, my dad would often come to my room in the evening, to turn off the light. I'd always ask him something, and he'd always sit on my bed, talking with me. About everything- he explained me why the sky is blue, why there is rainbow after the rain and who Sid Vicious was. When I was a kid, I thought dad knew everything. I love mum, but dad.. He loves me unconditionally, because I AM, not for WHO I am.
Story #2That's actually quite funny one... My cousins used to come for summer when we were kids. And we used to play together, and there was this boy, Paweł, my best friend. Once, I remember it so well, Ania and I were sitting on the tree, and she told me that Paweł kissed her the other day. We must've been like 5 or 6 lol. I got so furious that I pushed her off the tree and she fell down to the ground and broke her wrist
( ... )
you don't know me but i accidently came to your site and decided to post something...
1. a secret: i am still so damn obsessed with my ex-affaire and even though i would probably never admit it there hasnt been one day for past whole year that i didnt think about him. i just hope he is fine and i am so fucking jealous on everyone who still hangs out with him.
2. a thought: most likely i will move together with my ex-affaire's best friend because we are both going to attend the same university next semester. well, i am just scared that i am only moving together with that guy so that my ex-affaire will still be a part of my life..
3. a memory: today i remembered the days when i was still about 10. it was such a wonderful time when all the kids from my neighbourhood played together outside. hide&seek and all that stuff. we were so happy back then with nothing to worry.
4. a random story:this summer was great. we just graduated from school and it was fair in town. we partied but the fair closed at about 11pm and me and a couple of
( ... )
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yes, Im always thinking about what my family would think about stuff like that...i dont think theyll ever understand. and i dont know how i could explain either!!
i love childhood memories so much!
everything was so perfect then ... i lived in my own little world and what others thought never mattered.
I look back at it now and I already had a lot of behaviours that could probably predict what I was going to be now. But back then it meant nothing.
I wish I could go back to certain moments with all the knowledge I have about my life now, and change certain details, just little things that were actually turning points in my life.
no i didnt take this pic. I found it on flikr
http://www.flickr.com/photos/rinder/sets/72157594367552727/
I love this set!
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Maybe it will all work out for the best. Maybe we'll end up in some certain situations that we would never end up if it weren't for going through what we're going through. That's how I like to think of it. Like, if I weren't eating disordered I wouldn't be here at uni now. And if I weren't here at uni I wouldn't have gone to Spain this summer. And if I hadn't gone to Spain this summer I wouldn't be planning to go back there again. And then who knows what will come from going back there.
But yes, I hope we end up in good places, not in spite of all of this, but because of all this. If we learn from it, then we're doing something right.
Yes, those are lovely photos! Thanks for the link x
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I'm lonely...
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Eric...i want someone too :(
you know, at least you had had girlfriends...i never had anyone.
i just dont get why i never like the guys who like me... everytime i have like a chance theres something holding me back...i dont know if im scared or something like that. i dont know.
but im not going to be with someone just because they like me and im lonely....so i guess ill just have to wait some more ;P
You'll find someone soon, sweetie. I know you probably hear this all the time but it's true, you're an incredible guy and someone will see that soon. There's no reason why someone like you should be alone! This is just...a phase I guess.
♥
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I just don't know where to begin
1. I keep having dreams about Borys, where two of us are so happy together. It hurts so much to wake up.
2. I get up in the morning just to see him on the bus. That's like totally pathetic.
3. I want to meet someone who would be only mine...someone to call my own
Lyrics
I listen to Cool Kids Of Death a lot, they just happen to have the most amazing lyrics ever.
All girls are bad
All are blue and bad
When they feel sick
They think how good love would feel
(...)
I stopped casting shadow today
It's gonna be so much much worse tomorrow.
***
Light inside us has burnt out
Generation nothing, generation no
My two favourite songs ever
I don't belive that anybody feels the way I do
About you now
(...)
There are many things that I'd like to say to you
But I don't know how
I say maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me,
and after all, you're my wonderwall
Wonderwall- Oasis
***
You can tell by the way, she walks that she's my girl ( ... )
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Story #1
I remember that when I was like 8 or 9, my dad would often come to my room in the evening, to turn off the light. I'd always ask him something, and he'd always sit on my bed, talking with me. About everything- he explained me why the sky is blue, why there is rainbow after the rain and who Sid Vicious was. When I was a kid, I thought dad knew everything.
I love mum, but dad.. He loves me unconditionally, because I AM, not for WHO I am.
Story #2That's actually quite funny one... My cousins used to come for summer when we were kids. And we used to play together, and there was this boy, Paweł, my best friend. Once, I remember it so well, Ania and I were sitting on the tree, and she told me that Paweł kissed her the other day. We must've been like 5 or 6 lol. I got so furious that I pushed her off the tree and she fell down to the ground and broke her wrist ( ... )
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1. a secret:
i am still so damn obsessed with my ex-affaire and even though i would probably never admit it there hasnt been one day for past whole year that i didnt think about him. i just hope he is fine and i am so fucking jealous on everyone who still hangs out with him.
2. a thought:
most likely i will move together with my ex-affaire's best friend because we are both going to attend the same university next semester.
well, i am just scared that i am only moving together with that guy so that my ex-affaire will still be a part of my life..
3. a memory:
today i remembered the days when i was still about 10. it was such a wonderful time when all the kids from my neighbourhood played together outside. hide&seek and all that stuff. we were so happy back then with nothing to worry.
4. a random story:this summer was great. we just graduated from school and it was fair in town. we partied but the fair closed at about 11pm and me and a couple of ( ... )
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