Sadness overtaketh me.

[arieus19]

It is here in the darkness that I fear my own thoughts. I fear even the thought of trying to rest my head on the pillow. As long as I'm awake, I can do other things to occupy my mind. But when I find myself sleeping into the slumber, the nightmare continues. I miss my daughter more than anyone can know. It feels as if there is something squeezing

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[crystalin_li]

I am severely out of the loop. What happened?

*HUG*

[ne]

I am not sure what happened hun but I do know how you feel in some degree.
I chose to give my daughter up as I knew I could not raise her the way she needed to be raised, not sure if this is your situation however the ensuing issues of not having her near, not being able to watch her grow up etc I DO understand.
It has killed me for so many years to know where she is, to know that I was not there for that first step, the first tooth, the first whatever and never would be.
I will say the one thing that kept me sane was that I knew I had done what I did out of love, I knew she was in good hands, I knew that she was being taken care of, and that eventually she would understand and we might meet.
We have, I don't know if she truly understands what I did but she's still young.
It's not easy and I won't say it is or will be.
If you need to talk please call me or email me o_faydra@yahoo.com.
Hugs hun and love.

[arieus19]

Me and Matt split up and for the time being I decided that he was more stable than me. I have gotten to see her along the way, but it's not nearly enough compared to being with her every day to what I have now. Matt began to see someone and that I am happy for because I have also found someone. But the post was about the woman he is with now. It's the things that this woman is flaunting that she does with my daughter that I don't get to do. So, this is just my post to let the world, or rather him in particular, that I don't care that he is dating again. I'm happy for him for that. He should be happy. I am just hurt by seeing all the moments that I am missing while some other woman gets to share those with my daughter. Sorry for keeping you. Thank you for being understanding. I hope that this isn't too odd for you. I have a new email and I'll send you a message from it.

Thanks hun. It means more than you know to hear the things you have said.