she spun the stars on her fingernails.

[arigidsearch]

things you may not know about me
Some of these are a wee bit revealing and perhaps tmi but I feel like being open.

+ When I was born I had a tumor in my left cheek. It was around the size of a golf ball. It wasn't cancerous. My doctor and my parents debated what the course of action should be: remove the tumor, leaving a disfiguring scar and

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[roytheboy]

wow, have you ever had a chance to talk to anyone about this stuff? (anyone being someone who can help you, not necessarily a psychiatrist).

[arigidsearch]

I've had my friends, and that's been enough. Aside from the being terrified of men, none of these things control my life. Yes, some bad things have happened, but it could be far worse.

[arigidsearch]

Thank you. I don't know. I love life and it's way too beautiful to let a few bad things ruin it.

[contrition]

I know I don't know you very well, but I never would have guessed any of this. You must be so strong to be able to keep those things from just over-taking you. I'm glad you're talking about it and I hope you don't usually keep it inside. You deserve a lot more than the way you've been treated by people, really. There are a million cliches I could say, but I know they'd all seem trite. Still, though, if you ever want to talk about anything (even just because I'd love to get to know you better) then let me know, love. With all the people who have been such let downs, I really hope you have other people in your life who are kind and that you can trust.

[arigidsearch]

Many many thanks. Bad things happen to good people everyday and I try my hardest to be strong for those who have it even worse. Awful things have happened, and there are a lot more than whats on that list, but being alive is enough to tip the balance. I am grateful for every moment I'm breathing, even if the walls are crumbling. I see starving/dying children and all I can think is "who am i to complain? who am i to feel pity on myself?" I live and press forward not just for myself, but for the people who can't.

[cain1k]

Wow, that is really revealing. I could totally understand if you were to hate men altogether with those instances. It is horrible what people will do.

[arigidsearch]

I don't hate men by any means. I'm just scared of them. I'm not one of those, "oh because a couple guys were horrible that means they all are" women. It's almost like a nervous twitch that I can't seem to get over.

[cain1k]

I know you don't hate all men. Just that I wouldn't blame you if you did.

If I got bit by a dog twice, yeah not all dogs are bad but I'd be skiddish around them all. Completely understandable and I hope you find someone who can understand that.

[trendyprof]

Wow... this must have been hard to write as well, emotionally

*hugs*

[arigidsearch]

i meant to say thank you to this, but i seem to have forgotten.

so, thank you<3