oh gravity, if you left me alone would i stay grounded or finally learn to use these wings?
i'm a baloon tied to a string or (more generally) any metaphor for bondage
no one ever told me that a self-imposed prison is the most difficult to escape

......a silent creed, an assurance to myself

(everything to which i cling, i'll set it free)

my life is a cage surrounded by fire.

i'm exhausted.

it's my own fault.

i will grow stronger through this, i always do.

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"Open wide my door, my Lord (to whatever makes me love you more)
Open wide my door (while there is still light to run toward)

earlier today i felt heavy under the weight of things

i realize i'm not an idiot but keep me in your thoughts prayers

give me some time before i give more info.

love you all

:)

i'm a fucking idiot.

hellllloooooooooo good feelings!!!

"what frequency are you getting? is it noise or sweet, sweet music ( Read more... )

1. new job
2. new place
3. awesome roomate
4. friends will be in town soon
5. school starts in 6 days
6. HOLY CRAP LIFE MOVES FAST

Still positive, still thankful for each breath, still waiting to fall in love.

sometimes you worry yourself sick about something....

and then you realize that it really means nothing when weighed with the rest of the world

it's time i learn to be honest with myself

i was once capable of great things....i will be that way again

I feel completely empty.

I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing.

So many things have changed in a short period of time. My body is stagnant and the rest of the world is working at hyper speed. I'm too afraid to take the first step.

-i've been extremely lazy these past few days
(it's not me)

-i'm fighting an internal war
it's bloody

-the past is so refreshing when recalled
i'll never have those years back
i want to make more memories, i want to fall in love with life again

:)