finally able to load some sort of pic....yay!!!

he says were going out to dinner and just because some jack ass on the road decided to piss him off he is gonna take it out on my by changing his mind. now he thinkx that making dinner is gonna chang it when i know all hes gonna fuckin cook is some past a shit. who the fuck spends $200 on pasta/sauce?? kevin and tim thats who. i could still be ( Read more... )

im applying at the p.c.s.d....gonna make $22,000 a year..which isnt much but for an entry level job its great!!! jj is gonna tell the investigator to put my application on the top of the list!!! go me...i hate my freakin job at assholebee's!! i cant wait to get out of their...the only reason im still there..we the 2 reasons are i cant afford to ( Read more... )

thought i was but im not....thought i could but i cant....thought i should but i shouldnt....thought i did but i didnt....should i shouldnt i...can i cant i...am i arent i...will i wont i...well i guess thats what i get for thinking....

some times i feel as if nothing ever matters! sometimes i feel like i don't deserve to live.. sometimes i feel as if i could die. some times i want to die by the knife..that is the black hole that is my life

looking thru the the window at the darkness inside
i found myself wondering how i made it this far. the hollow inside, is growing smaller. here i sit nearly twenty and have accomplished very little and yet want so much. what am i supposed to say? so what if i think the glass is half empty!

i finally got thru my dry spell...made tonz of friends...now they are all leaving again.....the emptiness that i filled is being drained once again. i think i will leave it dry once it dries...no point in filling a a hole with water!