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I tried to make it to the better times but it often ends just feeling like I'm only waiting for the next down to happen. Even when I'm not on a down(*) I don't feel any drive, enhusiasm and desire like I see in so many other people. And I feel powerless; I have no idea how to deal with my negstive thoughts or feel any of the drive that seems so essential
(*) Low self-esteem, low self-image, fear of any risk, _huge_ jealousy of anyone that's doing better than me, anger at myself that I'm not equal to what I see around me. Anger that I see everyone already having done these things when they were teenagers compaed to me who's one fuck all in my 26 years.
It's imes like these I feel empty and totally powerless, a failuire who's too scared to go after what he wants. Could professional help do anything here? Am I just a whyny little bitch? I honestlyu don't know
(*) Low self-esteem, low self-image, fear of any risk, _huge_ jealousy of anyone that's doing better than me, anger at myself that I'm not equal to what I see around me. Anger that I see everyone already having done these things when they were teenagers compaed to me who's one fuck all in my 26 years.
It's imes like these I feel empty and totally powerless, a failuire who's too scared to go after what he wants. Could professional help do anything here? Am I just a whyny little bitch? I honestlyu don't know