I DON'T WANT TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chesleighisbeautiful Pafford
c/o Milestones in Recovery
5960 S.W. 106th Avenue
Cooper City, Florida 33328

Oh and everyone will have to bring an old video of themselves when they were younger. And there will be dress up stuff. And so much love. I am thinking around thanksgiving time. <3 We will take on the world

whoa, was that my disease or what ( Read more... )

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FUCKFUCKFCUFKCUFKCFUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

FUCK ( Read more... )

It's terribly ironic how much I just sugar-coated the whole thing to my parents ( Read more... )

Here is what I wrote on Thursday ( Read more... )

I'm just too young for this. I do not know my next move. I cannot leave the house. I cannot tell you what it was like holding little Tiara yesterday. I was at least 7 before my mom finally refused to continue rocking me in the rocking chair. I am really great with kids. They love me and my love for some of them is so intense it has kept me up at ( Read more... )

Cause I dont want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

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I am not ok. I am not Chesleigh. Today I have given up and I don't know to what extent yet. Death is real and it wants me to itself.