Yep, that's it. I am officially screwed
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So, you all know that GMAT? That test I've been studying for for, no kidding, months? Where I cut my NY trip short from actually seeing my friends and going to Cam because I needed to take the test in under ten days, that test. You know the one, it's required for my graduate school application. Where I've been so busy studying I've missed a lot of things, fallen behind in some work, and had to completely shut out any feeling about one of my cats being put down becuase I just didn't have time to deal with that. I had it at 12 today. Well. Let me also remind you how I've been having that ID issue with getting a State ID for Mass. Where they require documents for one, but to get said documents I need...wait for it...wait for it...a government issued ID! I've been working on this for months. My school ID and my expired permit from NY do not apply, of course.
Now, you may be wondering how these two things come together, but I will tell you. Because I lack an up to date, valid government issued ID, I was not allowed to take the test. They even called two or three different people to see, and I got told...no. So, that's it. I am officially fucked. I cannot finish my application this year, and have to find a job...first I have to find out if I can even stay in Mass after this fucking thing. And I've been looking and applying for jobs for a bit now with little to no luck, so let's see how that goes.
I walked around downtown for a few hours. I didn't know what I was doing or where I was going, really, just walking. I think I have some of myself under control, though for a while there I was just randomly crossing streets without checking if there were cars or anything with a vague hope that something would happen. This hurts; it's like someone reached into me and tore something out while wearing barbed wire gloves tipped with something that burns cold.
I have a plan, though. First I'm going to have to call my parents (on the Sabbath, they'll LOVE that) and tell them what happened. Then I'll probably have to listen to them being upset, probably at me, and making me feel even worse about this. And after that, I think I'll just drink until I stop drinking. We'll see what that takes.
Most of the people on my list are friends, and so I ask you and warn you: please be cautious. This is not something I want to talk about, not something I want to commisserate(sp?) over, not something I want to analyze even to curse and growl about regulations or stupid fucking bureaucratic red tape. I do not want to snap at my friends or give them unearned anger and attitude, so please don't take offense, but don't bring it up. Thank you.
So, you all know that GMAT? That test I've been studying for for, no kidding, months? Where I cut my NY trip short from actually seeing my friends and going to Cam because I needed to take the test in under ten days, that test. You know the one, it's required for my graduate school application. Where I've been so busy studying I've missed a lot of things, fallen behind in some work, and had to completely shut out any feeling about one of my cats being put down becuase I just didn't have time to deal with that. I had it at 12 today. Well. Let me also remind you how I've been having that ID issue with getting a State ID for Mass. Where they require documents for one, but to get said documents I need...wait for it...wait for it...a government issued ID! I've been working on this for months. My school ID and my expired permit from NY do not apply, of course.
Now, you may be wondering how these two things come together, but I will tell you. Because I lack an up to date, valid government issued ID, I was not allowed to take the test. They even called two or three different people to see, and I got told...no. So, that's it. I am officially fucked. I cannot finish my application this year, and have to find a job...first I have to find out if I can even stay in Mass after this fucking thing. And I've been looking and applying for jobs for a bit now with little to no luck, so let's see how that goes.
I walked around downtown for a few hours. I didn't know what I was doing or where I was going, really, just walking. I think I have some of myself under control, though for a while there I was just randomly crossing streets without checking if there were cars or anything with a vague hope that something would happen. This hurts; it's like someone reached into me and tore something out while wearing barbed wire gloves tipped with something that burns cold.
I have a plan, though. First I'm going to have to call my parents (on the Sabbath, they'll LOVE that) and tell them what happened. Then I'll probably have to listen to them being upset, probably at me, and making me feel even worse about this. And after that, I think I'll just drink until I stop drinking. We'll see what that takes.
Most of the people on my list are friends, and so I ask you and warn you: please be cautious. This is not something I want to talk about, not something I want to commisserate(sp?) over, not something I want to analyze even to curse and growl about regulations or stupid fucking bureaucratic red tape. I do not want to snap at my friends or give them unearned anger and attitude, so please don't take offense, but don't bring it up. Thank you.