"Because when everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am."
1. In My Room- SHINee
Kibum stared at the white ceiling above him. He could hear Minho yelling obscurities at the TV (probably another game), Taemin begging Onew to let him go back on his laptop (that last incident of incriminating photos of all of them kept them all on the edge), and Onew was complaining loudly about how he never got any respect anymore.
There was one person missing and it was all to easy to notice (he was the loudest after all).
With his bright eyes, big mouth, perfect smile; and all that was Kim Jonghyun--everything Kibum didn’t deserve.
(Damn her and her perfect, perfect, smile--but as long as he was smiling, Kibum could not hate her.)
Kibum sighed heavily, looking out the window to his right.
Every time Jonghyun left, he took the sun with him.
2. Love Ya- SS501
Jonghyun didn’t know when it started but Kibum began to ignore him. At first the boy thought that he must have done something to annoy or piss the younger boy off--he did that often (it was probably that shirt he stained--accidentally of course).
But Kibum usually caved in and forgave Jonghyun with in a week.
It’s been over three.
Jonghyun knew him well enough to know that Kim Kibum wasn’t one to hide things, he normally slapped them on your face, whether you wanted it or not. And Jonghyun was his best friend, therefore he got the pleasure of being at the end of most of his verbal slaps (and rare physical ones too).
So it hurt him, to know that the latter was hiding something from him, whatever it was.
Jonghyun groaned into his pillow,
‘Let me in.’
3. Frontier- Deluhi
“What, something on my face?” Kibum snapped obnoxiously, waving his hands in front of Jonghyun’s frozen face.
Kibum would never admit it, but it made him uncomfortable.
“Nah, it’s just your face.” Jonghyun mumbled back, abruptly casting his gaze to the side.
Kibum sighed and turned away. There was no need to make useless conversations, especially if they hurt to go through in the first place.
Kibum had learned long before that it was useless trying to fix broken things. In the end, the cracks were still there.
4. Life- SHINee
The moon hung brightly in the dark, bruised sky. The stars weren’t half as bright as they use to be and Jonghyun blamed it on Kibum (It was always him).
“You okay?” Se Kyung asked, eyebrows furrowing slightly, concern evident in her voice.
He instantly thought Kibum’s bright eyes and wide smiles, causing his heart to clench painfully.
‘I’m fine” Jonghyun replied through gritted teeth, leaning over and pressing his lips to Se Kyung’s. (Forget it, just forget it.)
He heard a gasp and abruptly pulled away, turning to see a teary, wide eyed Kibum.
5. Crying Rain- Girugamesh
There was a war raging inside Kibum’s heart.
It hurt. It shouldn’t hurt. But it did (so, so, much).
He turned away from the horrid, heart eating, throat burning scene before him and quickly walked away from the living room and into his room
He held back the tears as he choked on his own sobs.
6. When I Look At You- Miley Cyrus
Jonghyun awoke to the sound of eggs (or something) crackling loudly and to the smell of coffee boiling. He slipped out of his bed and stumbled into his kitchen where the most beautiful, perfect individual stood (also known as Kibum), moving what had to be the coffee from the pot into their--yes, their, mugs.
Jonghyun walked up to Kibum’s back and wrapped his arms around him as Kibum sighed into his embrace.
“Brush your teeth.” He stated softly, lightly swatting Jonghyun’s arms.
Jonghyun smiled onto Kibum’s neck,
“I love you.”
7. SHINee World- SHINee
It was loud and hot. The club was packed, the dance floor flooding with desperate people dancing away whatever stabbed at their lives in the day. Kim Jonghyun thought it was completely and utterly,
“Stupid. And a waste of time. Honestly, I was just wanna get you in this body, can we just make love, like right now?” Jonghyun asked the beautiful boy to his right.
Kibum quirked a perfectly sculpted eyebrow,
“Who actually asks?”
8. Velvet- Breathe Carolina
Jonghyun pushed Kibum roughly against the door, moaning as the latter nipped at his lips.
He traced Kibum’s waist, his warm skin against his cold, biting down on his lips and smiled when Kibum gasped.
Kibum tore his hands away from Jonghyun’s hair and shoved them down his pants, eyes filled with mirth as the other groaned loudly.
“If I don’t fuck you now, I’ll go crazy.” Jonghyun growled out and Kibum smiled in response,
“Well who’s stopping you, princess?”
9. Iris- Goo Goo Dolls
“I like you.” Jonghyun confessed one night, when the moon was covered by grey clouds and not one star was in sight.
Kibum stared at him wide-eyed.
“W-What?” he asked swallowing loudly.
Jonghyun repeated what he had stated and watched as Kibum sat down slowly on his bunk.
“But I’m straight. I can’t--I can’t like you back--I,” he began in a shaky voice and Jonghyun laughed.
“I know, Kibum, I know.”
“Then why? Why would you tell me?”
Because when everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.
10. McFly- Point of View
Love fades away. It does.
There were a thousand lines written in Jonghyun’s heart dedicated to the way Kibum smiled. But he didn’t believe any of them anymore (he didn’t even know how he came up with them in the first place; they all seemed like lies now).
They had stopped holding hands, hugging, and kissing wasn’t the same (heartless, desperate, cold).
“I never wanted everything to end this way.” Jonghyun had explained that night to a silently crying Kibum.
“I know. But I can take your blue sky and turn it grey, right?” he asked with a sad smile.
“Yeah.” Jonghyun sighed.
11. Mirotic- DBSK/TVXQ
Drip. Drop.
Drop.
Fall. Falling.
Catch me, catch me!
Smile (wide, and bright, and loud).
Tick. Tock.
Tick.
Time is ticking (faster, faster).
Run. Running.
Catch me, catch me!
Stop. Go.
Go.
Forever is waiting.
Love. Loving.
You’ve caught me.
Game over.
Want to play again?
A/N: So the point is to put your songs on shuffle and whatever song plays (no skipping!) you write to it, and stop when it stops playing, and then go on to the next? Yeah, that sounds about right. Anyways, your supposed to do it for 10 songs. I lost count and did 11. Peachy. I won’t lie, this is really hard, some songs, I just sat there and listened to for like half the time and then scribbled some bullshit. Haha. Sore loser much? I hate how I had to end some of them. Oh. And make fun of my music taste and I’ll kill you. Just kidding.