Sick Little Games
Master Post
Would You Trade That Heart of Gold For a Minute in My Skin?
Chapter 10, Sick Little Games
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"rian's on the prowl 2nite." Pete texts Alex one day while he's at work. Pete's out at the club tonight, probably partying with all the people who don't have to work tomorrow morning. It's almost Friday night and Alex gets off work in fifteen minutes. He gets another text in a few minutes, "he asked about u and when i told him u were @ work, he just tried to hide a smile"
Alex tries his hardest just to shrug it off as nothing, but he just can't help it. It bothers him that Rian, just a few months ago was begging Alex to come back. Now he smiles when he finds out that Alex isn't there.
Rian isn't the reason why Alex wants to get to the club, not at all. He'd promised Jack that they'd meet, dance a while and go out for some late night dinner at some cheap fast food joint and pretend like it was the fanciest restaurant in town. Jack had thought of that plan and Alex couldn't turn him down when he'd heard how excited he'd sounded.
It doesn't make a difference to Alex though, he only wants to know why Rian's suddenly shown up at the club. He'd always gone to the one for the gay boys. The one where they encouraged no shirts and sex in the back room. He'd never gone to any other one without Alex having to drag him along.
He almost feels possessive, like the club is his club. That Rian has no right to be there. He's interrupted in his thoughts by a text message, "i'm looking forward 2 our date tonite. ;)" The text from Jack makes him smile, reminding him that he only has five minutes left until he gets off work.
When Rian spots him at the club and begins to walk over, Alex can't help but panic inside. "What's wrong?" Jack asks him, completely oblivious to the scene. Alex is sort of angry that Pete's loud mouth hadn't told Jack about Rian before.
"The guy coming over here," Alex doesn't dare point because he's trying his hardest to blend in with the crowd, "is my clingy ass, bitchy ex-boyfriend. And he's a major heterophobe so I don't know what the fuck he's doing here except attempt to ruin my life." Alex tries his hardest to play it off as nothing, but it's not the easiest thing to do.
Jack laughs, "How can you even be heterophobic?" He takes the moment to kiss Alex, just piss off all the homophobes at the club. A couple twists their face in disgust before dancing their way away. "There are homophobes, but I didn't know there were heterophobes"
When Rian walks past the two without much more than a look towards Alex, he can't help but feel just a little bit upset. He can't help the thoughts that plague him, like Is that all I am now? He doesn't even know why.
"Maybe you just have trouble letting go," Jack says, reading Alex’s mind.
Alex smiles at the younger boy, "You're not supposed to do that unless we're married." Alex says, dancing a little closer to him, pulling him closer to immerse himself.
Jack looks at him confused, "Do what?"
"Read my mind."
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He's lying in bed with Jack at his apartment, Jack fast asleep and snoring softly that makes Alex smile. The words float around in his head, maybe you just have a hard time letting go, and make him feel like crap. He can't help it, but maybe going on with Jack is a mistake.
He doesn't want to hurt Jack like he hurt Rian. Jack's just too good for that. He doesn't even know who he is anymore, he can't tell over the layers of complexity that are in his mentality if he's even who he thought he was.
Then the realization hits, as he's losing himself, he's losing Jack, Pete, Zack and all his friends along the way. He can't wait.
He rolls over, gently shaking Jack awake. "Jack, Jack," he's near begging Jack to wake up. He knows he won't be able to sleep with these thoughts roaming around his head. He needs to straighten everything out before he can even think of sleeping.
Jack jolts awake, "What's up Alex?" He looks at the clock that reads 5:47 am, "Are you trying to get me to watch the sun rise with you 'cause I am way too fucking tired for that shit right now."
Alex snorts, mostly because he will never want to watch the sun rise or any other cheesy romantic shit like that. "No no," he says, "I've gotta talk to you. It's been keeping me up all night long."
"Uh oh," Jack says as his face falls, "What's the damage?"
Alex tries to, he can't even speak. He can barely breathe through the tension in the room. He feels himself begin to shake, scared of the domino effect. Or more in his case, the snowball effect. "Go to New York with me," he blurts out. He doesn't even think or know where that came from.
Jack pulls back, surprised, "Uh, why?"
Alex thinks up of a reason on the spot, lying his entire way through the conversation now, "I need to get away. I can't stay here. I just need to have somewhere I can clear my head. But I can't go without you."
Jack takes in the information, obviously rolling the thought over in his head, "When?"
Alex shrugs, he's not even sure when he has time off to go anyways, "Any time before I go insane."
"Just give me a time frame and I'll go," Jack says as he leans in and kisses Alex. "To be honest, I thought you were going to tell me we were like, over or something."
Alex smiles, thankful that he'd managed to come up with an acceptable alternative. "I might be losing the best of me, but with you, I think I might be able to find it again."
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Would You Trade That Heart of Gold For a Minute in My Skin?
Chapter 10, Sick Little Games
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"rian's on the prowl 2nite." Pete texts Alex one day while he's at work. Pete's out at the club tonight, probably partying with all the people who don't have to work tomorrow morning. It's almost Friday night and Alex gets off work in fifteen minutes. He gets another text in a few minutes, "he asked about u and when i told him u were @ work, he just tried to hide a smile"
Alex tries his hardest just to shrug it off as nothing, but he just can't help it. It bothers him that Rian, just a few months ago was begging Alex to come back. Now he smiles when he finds out that Alex isn't there.
Rian isn't the reason why Alex wants to get to the club, not at all. He'd promised Jack that they'd meet, dance a while and go out for some late night dinner at some cheap fast food joint and pretend like it was the fanciest restaurant in town. Jack had thought of that plan and Alex couldn't turn him down when he'd heard how excited he'd sounded.
It doesn't make a difference to Alex though, he only wants to know why Rian's suddenly shown up at the club. He'd always gone to the one for the gay boys. The one where they encouraged no shirts and sex in the back room. He'd never gone to any other one without Alex having to drag him along.
He almost feels possessive, like the club is his club. That Rian has no right to be there. He's interrupted in his thoughts by a text message, "i'm looking forward 2 our date tonite. ;)" The text from Jack makes him smile, reminding him that he only has five minutes left until he gets off work.
When Rian spots him at the club and begins to walk over, Alex can't help but panic inside. "What's wrong?" Jack asks him, completely oblivious to the scene. Alex is sort of angry that Pete's loud mouth hadn't told Jack about Rian before.
"The guy coming over here," Alex doesn't dare point because he's trying his hardest to blend in with the crowd, "is my clingy ass, bitchy ex-boyfriend. And he's a major heterophobe so I don't know what the fuck he's doing here except attempt to ruin my life." Alex tries his hardest to play it off as nothing, but it's not the easiest thing to do.
Jack laughs, "How can you even be heterophobic?" He takes the moment to kiss Alex, just piss off all the homophobes at the club. A couple twists their face in disgust before dancing their way away. "There are homophobes, but I didn't know there were heterophobes"
When Rian walks past the two without much more than a look towards Alex, he can't help but feel just a little bit upset. He can't help the thoughts that plague him, like Is that all I am now? He doesn't even know why.
"Maybe you just have trouble letting go," Jack says, reading Alex’s mind.
Alex smiles at the younger boy, "You're not supposed to do that unless we're married." Alex says, dancing a little closer to him, pulling him closer to immerse himself.
Jack looks at him confused, "Do what?"
"Read my mind."
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He's lying in bed with Jack at his apartment, Jack fast asleep and snoring softly that makes Alex smile. The words float around in his head, maybe you just have a hard time letting go, and make him feel like crap. He can't help it, but maybe going on with Jack is a mistake.
He doesn't want to hurt Jack like he hurt Rian. Jack's just too good for that. He doesn't even know who he is anymore, he can't tell over the layers of complexity that are in his mentality if he's even who he thought he was.
Then the realization hits, as he's losing himself, he's losing Jack, Pete, Zack and all his friends along the way. He can't wait.
He rolls over, gently shaking Jack awake. "Jack, Jack," he's near begging Jack to wake up. He knows he won't be able to sleep with these thoughts roaming around his head. He needs to straighten everything out before he can even think of sleeping.
Jack jolts awake, "What's up Alex?" He looks at the clock that reads 5:47 am, "Are you trying to get me to watch the sun rise with you 'cause I am way too fucking tired for that shit right now."
Alex snorts, mostly because he will never want to watch the sun rise or any other cheesy romantic shit like that. "No no," he says, "I've gotta talk to you. It's been keeping me up all night long."
"Uh oh," Jack says as his face falls, "What's the damage?"
Alex tries to, he can't even speak. He can barely breathe through the tension in the room. He feels himself begin to shake, scared of the domino effect. Or more in his case, the snowball effect. "Go to New York with me," he blurts out. He doesn't even think or know where that came from.
Jack pulls back, surprised, "Uh, why?"
Alex thinks up of a reason on the spot, lying his entire way through the conversation now, "I need to get away. I can't stay here. I just need to have somewhere I can clear my head. But I can't go without you."
Jack takes in the information, obviously rolling the thought over in his head, "When?"
Alex shrugs, he's not even sure when he has time off to go anyways, "Any time before I go insane."
"Just give me a time frame and I'll go," Jack says as he leans in and kisses Alex. "To be honest, I thought you were going to tell me we were like, over or something."
Alex smiles, thankful that he'd managed to come up with an acceptable alternative. "I might be losing the best of me, but with you, I think I might be able to find it again."
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